may the force be with you

i am so freaking pissed.

i had like a really long post yesterday. when i pressed submit post, tada, it was gone. when i checked my blog, it wasn't even published.what's wrong with blogger? oh well. anger will only make me look older, so i'd make a new post instead.

last sunday, was family day. we heard mass at 10.30 and it was sooooooo hot! it's so hard being in the phils. i have never experienceda summer this hot. moving on, after we heard mass, we went to shang, and ate at cibo, then watched the last installation of star wars, the revenge of the sith, and can i just share, i think hayden christensen is to-die-for. he is such a versatile actor. i didn't think he'd pull it off - what i mean is his character being a meanie. biased i know, i saw him in one of his older films where he played a rebellious son, and well, he pulled it off, prolly because he dyed his hair jet black and he had these piercings andtattooes, but with star wars, the make-up did wonders for him. he doesn't look good when he scowls though. either way, he is totally gorgeous. :)i have never been a fan of star wars, but i liked the film, anyway. i was kinda bored at the beginning, but the movie's not at all draggy, compared to episodes 1 & 2.

i was with kaye yesterday. BONDING TIME. i missed being with her noh. this is the first summer where we don't see each other at least twice a week.i had a great time. we went to the country club and catched up on a lot of things. after all, i haven't seen her since feb 26 - my debut. :( margaux adores kaye! kakatuwa sobra.

i have lost 5 lbs. i think i mentioned in my previous post that while i was in hk, i gained 5 lbs. well, i lost what i gained and i am hoping that i continuelosing weight. i've only gone to the gym once but am persistent. SELF-CONTROL is the key. i lessened the food that i ate. if i eat heavy merienda, i don't have dinner anymore. when it's not raining, i go walking/jogging around the subdivision. when it's raining or i don't have anyone else to walk with,i exercise in my room. 50 rounds in my room, 80 crunches, 35 of the hard thing we do in pe (yes, i don't know what it's called, if any of my pe-mates are reading this, we only did it once - i'm so stupid ahahaha) i hope i continue losing weight. :)

i'm going to have a car for 3 days. fri-sun. too bad i won't be able to use it on friday coz i'm going to divisoria with my mom naman. you see, i haveto practice driving. or else i won't get a license. my parents keep nagging me about it na. nobody wants to ride when i'm riding kasi feeling nila mamamatayna sila. i'm not that bad a driver naman eh. I CAN DO THIS. until now i can't imagine myself driving outside the subdivision. ooh i'm such a scaredy-cat.i'm so used with having someone drive for me that i don't want to drive. but on the flip side, when i drive my own car, i can leave school whenever i want to, i can go out without waiting for the driver. hay. aja. :)

i miss my friends. trisha! wag ka nga batugan, i need you! labas na tayo! jia..kaya mo yan.. aiza, ria and nina! miss you girls! mwah mwah! love you!gino, wag na magselos kay hayden christensen at kay carlo aquino. kay andy roddick ka lang dapat magselos :)

i'll be posting some pictures :)

MY SOURCE OF HAPPINESS

margaux in zambales with her suit on


still in the province taking pictures of herself



at home watching meteor garden :)


sleepy baby!


my gogo at edsa shang. isn't she the cutest? :)


with mr. bee :)

SOURCE OF INSPIRATION

andy roddick. i've been in love with him since he was playing in the juniors league. nauna pa ko kay mandy moore!! good luck on the french open, andy! (feeling he'd be able to read this eh haha)


one word: HOT! he's mine!

FAMILY PICTURES FROM HK TRP 2005

on the airport express bus with ate - on the way to the hotel 08 may 2005



at the lobby of marco polo prince, waiting for our parents 08 may 2005


@ pizza hut, having lunch 09 may 2005


with ciara in mcdonald's having breakfast 11 may 2005


@ china products, buying pasalubongs for our grandparents 12 may 2005




@ kowloon station, while waiting for the train that'll bring us to the airport 12 may 2005



@ the airport express train on the way to the airport 12 may 2005


waiting for boarding 12 may 2005



waiting to depart. mga pasaway. cellphones must be turned off inside the plane. haha. 12 may 2005

5 lbs heavier - that's me!

i haven't posted in a long time, and i've been quite busy, actually.

07 May 2005
Jia's debut (luau)
Jia looked ravishing. it was really her day :) of course, the entire barx was complete (yey!)
i was soo soo happy to see my friends.. after 2 weeks (i think). trisha might be leaving for canada soon =( makes me really really sad.. makes us all really really sad. i hope next year nalang sila umalis. hahaha selfish!

jia looked pretty in her green and pink dress.. so did ria, trish, nina, and aiza! they were so beautiful. they are beautiful. i'm so lucky. to have friends like them.. :) anyway, about the party,, aiza and gino had this song number - which we all loved! aiza sang true colors, (gino on guitars). ay angaling sobra!!! i knew way back in grade school that aiza was a good singer, but every time i hear her sing, i forget that she's the same aiza i know! it's as if i don't know her! she's that amazing. haaaaay.. aiza and jia also did 2 songs together - get me and cool with you. jia's a really good singer, and that's what most of my batchmates don't know about her. she's too shy to sing kasi eh.

jia's ex is so mean. i feel so bad for jia. i almost cried while watching them dance (part of the 18 roses) because the ex wasn't talking to jia. i don't wanna talk about it anymore because it's too personal. it's between them and i, or anyone for that matter, shouldn't interfere.

i left for HK the very next day. our flight was delayed, the plane was supposed to leave at 14.40 but we left at 16.00. badtrip coz we weren't able to shop that night, haha but we had 4 more days to shop eh.

i didn't do anything but eat, shop and walk. i was always too tired to walk, and my back always hurt. hay. but i loved my stay there. my family and i are so bonded. even if our US trip was cancelled, just being with them is more than enough. :) hay nako, sarap ng food sobra! i gained about 5-8 lbs. 5 days of being away and i gained that much! sht, baboy na ko!!! ate mae told me this afternoon na, "baboy ka na!" i told her, at least i have a boyfriend! hahaha when my mom got here, she told me that i should lose weight,and that i shouldn't be content with my weight just coz i have a boyfriend who loves and adores me. *wink!* bakit, it's true naman eh! he loves and adores me. but yeah, i do have to lose weight.

we, obviously, got home last night. got home at around 12mn. i missed my house! i missed my bed! i missed margaux!!! i missed gino den, shempre. :)

i love HK. it's one of my favorite places in the world! amazing food, shopping places, clean cities, nice subway, everything's just wonderful. what's amazing pa is that they have this airport express where you can ride the train from the airport mismo, then will transport you to either kowloon, hong kong, or tsing yi station. then you'll ride a bus that'll bring you straight to your hotel. all for 23 minutes or so. and for a reasonable price. angaling. every time i'm in HK, i get sad because i want our country to be like theirs, clean, highly industrial, low crime rate, high tech, and more. also because all the yayas or helpers they have are filipinos. so sad. here we are, shopping till mawalan kami ng money (ahahaha) then the people who attend to us at shops, when they get home, who serves them? filipinos. the irony of things talaga. really sad. :( pero there's nothing wrong with being a DH. i think it's a really noble job. leaving your famiy for a better future. wow. *sniff*

i'm leaving for zambales tomorrow. hay. la manlang pahinga. 1 day lang to rest.

have a happy summer everyone!

pictures from last saturday - jia's debut



me and ria - we just love to smile haha


me and mark - yes, mark was there haha



aiza, trisha and dindin - after nina and ria left


me and gino - panget ko, gwapo nya!


the barx minus the debutante hiheee :)



after the party - trish and i with mark and gin went to mcdo for mcflurry :)

happy birthday, jia! =)

happy birthday Jia Janelle Castaneda :) It's because of this girl that my family's trip to hk was moved to sun-thurs.. see how much i love this girl.. i'm just sad that her ex didn't value her the way she should be. she's my gem. our barkada's gem. haay. i hope she finds someone who'd love and treasure her and treat her like a princess..

had my physical exam last tuesday. it was really awkard seeing my classmates. but there. i went with my mom then the doctor who checked me told me i might have UTI or something so i had to repeat the urinalysis thing. turns out my urine sample was contaminated the first time coz i used gloves, because yesterday, when i did the routine again, my pus cells were low (0-2). i had to repeat the chest x-ray yesterday den. i'm nervous nga right now coz i don't know why i had to repeat the whole thing again. :( i hope i'm not terribly sick..

trish is gonna be here tomorrow! girl bonding for a few hours before jia's debut.. after 2 weeks of not seeing each other, we'd have the whole day together.. :) will be seeing my girls too.. miss you guys!

enjoy your summer vacation while it lasts! before you know it, june na.. =)

after 10 years

i'm back! i haven't posted in a really long time... because my computer's busted! i'm in my ma's office right now, because the whole house is a mess. my parents are having the house renovated kasi, that's why sobrang gulo sa house. and because super alikabok these past few days, my parents sent my sisters and i to Edsa Shangri-la for 4 days (mon-thurs). you think i loved it? well, i hate not sleeping in my own bed, but over-all, i enjoyed my stay there. no parental units, more freedom.. but i didn't do much, actually. sunbathed for 2 days - i didn't get nice tan lines, i tell you, ate lunch and dinner at shang, major gala. pero i missed my room.. i still don't have it to myself, coz my parents are staying in my room as well. okay lang, major bonding with them diba? haha

went to USTH with my mama this morning.. had certain tests for my phys exam on tuesday.. kinuhaan ako ng blood nga kanina eh! i was like super duper scared! hahaha. scared of needles kasi eh.. at least it's over..

oooh... call me jologs, but i watched Can this be love? yesterday at shang.. we were like the only ones watching. haha ambaduy ko! i was curious kasi about the movie, that's why we watched it.. it's not like i'm a big fan of sandara and hero. i personally don't like sandara because she's not a filipino, yet people are patronizing her the way they should support a filipino artist. sobrang daya eh. pinayayaman nila hindi naman nila kalahi. pero hero is really cute ah. hahaha :)

my sched's a bit jam-packed this coming week.. i'll be leaving for mimosa tomorrow and will be coming home on sunday. monday - practice at jia's house for her debut. tuesday - physical exam at UST. wed - dentist. saturday - jia's debut sunday-thursday - HK

will be posting again soon. hopefully, before i leave for hk.. haha ;)

btw, i finally got my student permit at LTO last monday. finally.

pictures

just got home from the country club. got bored coz i wasn't doing anything here at home, so i went with my little sisters. when i got there, got nothing to do den coz i didn't swim with them. (chlorine makes your skin dark - blackish instead of tan). so when my parents got there, and papa decided to go home na, coz he exercises every afternoon, i went with them. finally uploaded some pics..

at powerplant last april 8th


@ burgoo



while watching Chi, Liaa and Cara at Powerbowl

last april 16th in greenhills



at bayo - me, gino and cara - before gino's gig

At Grilla - AFTER GIN'S GIG

gino with the girls

chi, liaa, cara, and gino goofing around :)




BEFORE GOING HOME

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hay. what's new?! got nothing to do na naman. i was supposed to get my student's permit this morning at lto, but i decided against it, because i stayed up late last night, di na quality sleep if i wake up at 7am diba... watched sahara with my papa last night, while the girls watched the wedding date (again). the movie was nice. matthew mcConaughey's body was super nice.. isn't it obvious, that i've become such a movie addict lately? i've always loved watching movies in cinemas but doing it weekly? so impractical. yet, that's what i've been doing this summer. i did something productive though, over the weekend, and just a couple of hours ago. i finally memorized 3 of my 61/2 pg-recital piece, which is If You Believe by Jim Brickman. i think i'm too old for piano recitals. i will be the oldest recitalist ah. 2nd yr college student, still having piano recitals. at least i'm the finale, so it's not THAT embarrassing. hahaha. I also cleaned my closet and gave many of my clothes to my little cousin. Sayang yung mga binigay ko, coz i never used most of them. then i realized, that i always want to buy new things, when in fact i have new things that i never use. i'm too attached with my old things, that i don't want to give them away. which is the main reason why my closet is such a mess. thank God i got to clean it na... i got another thing in line for me, i'm going to enroll in A1 Driving School. haha my parents don't want to teach me how to drive (even though i know how to drive.. stick pa ah!) coz i'm too stubborn, so they told me to look for a driving school, which i'm supposed to be doing right now. but gino's not here, so next time nalng.

like mentioned in my previous post, gino and his band performed at the Music Museum last Saturday. they were the best band there.. i was so proud of Gino. he was just superb. he's the best guitar player in the whole wide world. :) i was the official camerawoman. and they even played gino's song for me - the one he composed especially for me :). i also met his parents - his whole family. i already met his sibings, twice, before saturday. i was so nervous! buti nalng they're so nice.. of course, gino's nice, so malamang mabait din pamilya niya diba?;)
will be updating pictures of last sat's event next time. tamad mag-upload..


ate mae and me last friday @ the country club

I SURVIVED!!

now i can really say that i did survive my 1st year in UST-nursing.. i passed 2nd year! i kinda expected it narin kasi my average was quite okay naman. wait. it was more than okay!! haha :) i'm so happy!! last april 8th, i went to UST nga for confirmation of enrolment.. after seeing my name in the list of qualified 2nd year applicants, i called mama, she told me to treat my sister, cousins, and my friends for lunch. we went to rockwell kasi - minus the friends, coz they couldn't come with me.. so there, we ate at burgoo with gino.. then chi, and the lil girls played bowling, while gino and i watched them lang. hahaha. we went to valle after, coz may swimming lessons si ciara.. rushed home agad coz my mom and i wanted to watch pope's funeral. di na namin naabutan, late na kasi eh. good thing i was able to watch just a portion of his requiem mass at the parlor, that afternoon..

gino has a gig at music museum tonight.. big time na sila.. haha sinwerte.. i'm gonna watch.. tis my 2nd time to watch him play with his band. bad girlfriend? nahh.. i just have so many reasons why i couldn't watch him play before..

i'm enjoying my summer break.. got nothing to do, pero that's okay.. at least i get to rest and all.

because i passed 2nd year, as my dad promised, he'd get me a car.. eto problem: i don't have a license pa.. hahahahahaha!

i watched the wedding date with chi, ate mae, liaa and cara yesterday at eastwood.. it's so nice... grabe.. a real feel-good movie.. i fell in love with nick (the guy in the movie) *sigh*

the game of life

So much has happened since I last posted here.

30 March 2005
Abbie, Erika and I went to Shang this afternoon for lunch and a movie. They picked me up at 12. We had lunch at Mongkok then had to hurry as the movie we were to watch starts at 1.45. Ate and Jr followed us and asked me to buy tickets for them - they too had lunch at Shang - nax, date ba?? Haha. Rowell also followed us. We watched Ms. Congeniality 2. Despite the bad reviews on the movie, I actually found it really really nice. Sandra Bullock is one of my favorite actresses, and she’s right by saying that she doesn’t have to do romantic comedies all the time. She just wants to be a comedian. Makes me wonder too, why if a girl stars as the lead comedienne, she always has to have a leading man, and the movie has to be a romantic comedy? Sandra (first name basis eh noh?) also said she’d be veering away from romantic comedies for a while... too bad coz I love romantic comedies! Before going home, I went to National Bookstore and got 2 Judith McNaught novels (Once and Always & Whitney, My Love - I'm done reading both hahaha)

Last Friday was the 9th day since my great-uncle's death. The Tayag family heard mass at San Roque Church in San Roque, Mandaluyong, where Daddy Toto served until he died. His remains were at the crypt at the basement of the Church. Before heading to the Country club, the family went to the crypt and prayed for Daddy Toto. We had dinner at the Country Club. Complete kami lahat. Complete ang Montalla family. All of Mama's cousins who are still here in Manila were there, except for my 2 uncles (brothers ni mama -may date kasi ata). We left at around 11pm. Nako, puro kami pictures! Caitlin was super cute! She was imitating this Texan accent and kept saying, "Hi, my name's Caitlin! And I'm from Texas!" oooooooooh! Super duper cute. I got it all in my vidcam. Hahaha. Took so many pictures. I'd try to post them, pero the pictures, I think, are in the other computer.. anyway, next time =)

We heard mass last Saturday at 6pm, had dinner at home (because of papa), then went to Rockwell, to watch Ms. Congeniality AGAIN. Yes, I watched the movie twice. I wanted to be with my family, so nagsayang ako ng 130bucks. Hahaha. I slept at around 3.30 that night - I know, Sunday morning na nun, I slept that late coz I was waiting for the latest updates on Pope’s condition. Imagine my frustration when I found out the next morning that Pope passed away on 3.37 am Manila time. I so wanted to hit myself. Anyway, it’s a big loss. Although, I am quite optimistic about the whole thing. As US President Bush said, "A good servant of God has been called home." It’s so much better that the Pope has gone home na, because at least diba hindi na siya maghihirap. I just hope that the next Pope would be just as good as our beloved one who just passed away. I remember how I so wanted to see him back in 1995, when he went to Manila for the World Youth day. My mom woke us up at around 3 so that we'd have a good place at Roxas Blvd, coz we thought that that's where he'd be passing on his way to have a mass at the Quirino Grandstand. He went to UST though on the 2 occasions that he went to the Philippines, which makes me what, a proud Thomasian? Let's put it this way, at least the school has something to be proud of. The university is so proud about saying how we are the Pontifical and Catholic University in the Philippines. Wanna know why? We are the Catholic Univ in the Phil because UST is the only university in the Philippines that the Vatican recognizes as a Catholic institution. It's Pontifical because, if I remember correctly we were oriented about this, the head of the University is the Pope. Hard to believe, pero if you recall those 2 visits of the Pope, sa UST lang siya nagpunta na school diba? Hahaha. I'm gonna look at the seat the Pope sat on when he was here last 1981 and 1995 nga on Friday. I'd be going there to check whether I made it to 2nd year.

I got my grades online last night, and, so far, so good. I got what I deserved. Okay, even if it's against my will to post my grades, I'm not ashamed of it kasi I deserve it - except for my grade in Zoology. I should've gotten a higher mark.

I super duper love my family!!

We went to Daddy Toto's wake last night. His unico hijo (Tito Gary) was there, with his wife Tita Aimee and their cute, adorable little girl, Caitlin - which happens to be my favorite name (for a girl, and I swear I'm gonna name my first baby girl Caitlin). It was the last day as Daddy Toto's body was cremated this morning. I was the official babysitter last night. I wasn't the oldest grandchild there, but then the oldest ones were hanging out with our parents - as they're kinda adults themselves. I took care of, take note, 8 kids. 6 girls and 2 super kulit boys. I was never that close to my second cousins before, and for the first time in my life, I appreciated their presence. And I loved it. I love them. Although they are all super kulit, they make me feel young. Because I am young. Another thing that made me extremely happy last night was Caitlin. She is so adorable. Super cute, and always smiling. She lives in Texas, though, with her parents. It's the first time I've seen her and probably the last (until like 5 years from now?) as they're leaving for Texas on Sunday. I so love my family.

I went to my derma this afternoon, and you'll never guess who was there, consulting my derma... Mariel from Extra Challenge! She's super pretty, but super loud as well. I don't know what she had done, but she kept shouting and reading out loud her text messages, and talking and talking. Not that it made me mad, it made me smile, actually. She's really pretty. But I saw her looking at the mirror a lot. And I mean a lot. Hahaha. Like I said, I went nga to the derma this afternoon, and my face hurts a lot! 4 or 5 of my pimples were injected, but that's okay. Like what my derma said, the motto of every vain woman: No pain, no gain.

I love life! Even if bad things happen to us, there's always something good - something better actually, that's coming our way. And I believe that. I am a believer. *sigh*

right now, i am so not thinking of NURSING or of UST. please, pray for me....

PICTURES

this is my cute cousin, Caitlin :) isn't she adorable?


me with Caitlin

a very holy week

I just got home from church. My mom, chi, ate mae, cousin liaa, and I attended the Easter Vigil that lasted for 2 and a half hours. It was all worth it. I feel more fulfilled, although I don't know why. I want to write about so many things since last Thursday, but I couldn't, since I felt that if I did do that, my mom would barge into the room and once again lecture me about Jesus' suffering and stuff like that. I was so happy that Studio 23 silently answered my prayers by the 11-episode marathon of Gilmore Girls last Maundy Thursday. I was more than happy to watch - I so love the Gilmore Girls. They're the reason why I don’t like to go out on Saturday nights. Babaw I know, but I just love watching them. The bond that Rory and Lorelai have is just something I'm so jealous of. As much as I love having a big and complete family, I envy the bond that Rory and Lorelai have. They are the best of friends, yet they're mother-daughter. How I wish I could talk to my mom about anything and everything - such as boys and stuff. I get to tell her everything naman - like what happens to me in school, the people I encounter, how I feel, and more, but somehow, she’s not exactly 100% supportive of the things I want. but I love her, I really do =) On that same day- Thursday - instead of having our annual Visita Iglesia on Maundy Thursday, we attended the service at the Methodist Church. The Pastor chose Papa to be one of the disciples. Yeah, the pastor washed Papa's feet. And for the first time in my life, I also saw women acting like disciples. That's one of the things I like about the Methodist Church, they're not chauvinists. Anyway, I was extremely proud of my Papa because he helped this really old lady, who had a difficulty walking, walk up the stairs to the altar. My great-uncle, Tito Juanito (Tayag) who we fondly call Daddy Toto, as he was the one who was responsible for my Mama and my aunt's grade school and High school education, passed away last Thursday at 9am. It was really sad. Ate Mae, Chi, Liaa and Cara (my cousins), and I went to his wake last night at Loyola. We all cried when we got there coz the people from his parish were there, leading the rosary and singing Church songs. By the end of the night, I wondered whether I was in a party or in a wake. My uncles entertained all of us (Tayag family) by telling us stories of their schooling experience. It was hilarious. I remembered my great-grandma's wake, it was also like that. It's always like that, whenever my family gets together. And because of this, I have to say that I am proud to be a Tayag. They're all proud of it. My great-grandpa was one of the first medicine graduates at the UST Med School, and yet, his kids weren't at all that bright. Only 3 of his 7 students were the ones who were really smart. They used to be really rich. But my great grandparents died at such an early age. Ironically, the not-so-rich kids my great-grandpa had as scholars (i.e. his nieces and nephews) were the ones who are now really rich and really successful. But despite my family's background, we are all happy. Really happy. It's Holy Week, right? Which made me miss my Paopao and my uncle and aunt more. I so miss them. They're in Baltimore, lonely and all. We're all supposed to be visiting them this year, but because of the things that happened in January, we couldn't go. And I'm not bitter that we wouldn't be able to go there. I'm content with what I have. And I have my family. Couldn't be happier. =) after all, I'd be living in the States right after I pass the boards. About 3 years from now. Sad... I so miss everyone. Missin school (can't believe I'm saying this!!!). I only miss school because I miss my friends. Ahahahaha. We're going out this coming Wednesday naman eh, to watch Ms. Congeniality 2... I might watch MYMP on Wed night too.. and I have to go to Chi's grad party - her class would be having this party and chi asked gino if he could play for them. He's so in demand tlaga. =) I miss him. I miss his voice. I haven't talked to him for 3 days na. He's in Bicol right now eh, but he'd be going home tomorrow. I so can't wait. Mahina signal in Bicol kasi eh, he couldn't call or text me. Pahirapan magtext grabe!! I just love him so much. Because of the man that he is and is trying to be. *haaay*

PICTURES:

me and inna - 1st sem @ a uaap game

me and abbie - after enrollment (last sem)

me and oana

inna, me and abbie

abbie, me, inna and oana

oana, me, abbie, and inna with kenken

FAMILY PICTURES

nanay, me, ate mae, chi, and mama - chi's grad

me, papa, chi, and mama

me and the graduate

summer days!

yeah. summer's definitely here..it's so freakin' hot! taking a bath twice isn't enough for the heat you know.

i went out last friday with inna, abbie, owel, tiff, erika, and a lot more of abbie's friends from tarlac.. oana followed us (she looked pretty with her cute gown ah). we went to greenbelt and watched hitch, which i totally recommend everyone to watch. it's so funny. i like it :-)

my ma, ate, chi and i watched the pacifier 2 nights ago at eastwood.. ahhh... i loved the movie! vin diesel was sooo hot! hahaha watch it you guys.

16 days of waiting for judgment day..


I AM SUCH A BOOKWORM.
last friday, i started reading Nicholas Sparks' The Wedding and finished it at Saturday afternnoon. i fell in love with it. read it.
i started reading Judith McNaught's Something Wonderful yesterday at 1pm and finished it today at 3.30pm. couldn't keep my hands off the book. i still have another Judith McNaught novel to read and another Jude Deveraux. haha, i don't have money because of these books. the next time i buy a book i'm gonna charge it to my credit card. hahaha
i am so in love with judith mcnaught's books. she is such an angel. i've read 3 and i don't mind reading all of her books :)


6 days of summer and i think i gained about 5 lbs already. haha

barx? alis naman tayo o.
abbie inna oana? hello? i'm still alive. haha let's go out
friends? give me a ring

freedom! almost.....

yey! i can't really say yet, but somehow, i want to say that i survived (ooh i hope!!) my first year in college.. i carry with me bittersweet memories.. yeah..

1st sem was definitely more fun than 2nd sem.. first, because subjects were much simpler (but chem, i tell you, was already hell!), didn't have a grueling sched, UAAP basketball games (hahaha, ugh, the bonding moments with abbie, inna and trish - priceless!), and i can say that i made a lot of new friends.. that sad to say, i wasn't able to keep until 2nd sem.. i am still hoping for a reconciliation, but all of us are too proud to approach each other. it was a very little thing made big by some people. there's no more time for blaming each other. it's over. we might never see each other again - not because we'd be kicked out, but because i think the class will be split into two.. uh, as of now, i'm hoping and praying that i make the cut..

know what, the conflict in class? it's nothing to me anymore.. if they talk to me about it, i'd talk to them. but let me reiterate, no one's making any move for things to be okay between all of us. and well, that's fine by me. i don't like bad memories, so i'd like to remember the good ones nalng. Din, stop thinking about it na!!

I'M FREEEEEE!! no more sleeping for 5 hours a night.. no more waking up at 5 in the morning and sleeping in the van until i get to UST.. no more sleeping again in the van before i even get to Quezon Ave! No more waking up at 5 on wednesdays without shampooing! and best of all,,, NO MORE CHEMISTRY!! 2 semesters of chemistry just made my first year in college a REAL CHALLENGE. and i'm SO NOT SARCASTIC. for all incoming freshmen nursing students at UST, if you LOVED chemistry in high school, you're so gonna hate it this time! Now i can proudly say that i have been through general, inorganic, organic and biochemistry!! now beat that! hahahahaha!

today was my last day as a frosh.. and hopefully, i make it to second year.. indeed a lot of memories that i will keep until my last breath - uh, i do have a flair for the dramatic.

april 8th - Judgment day for frosh nursing students in UST.. the college'll be posting the qualified students for 2nd year.. Oh Lord i hope i make it... man! 2 weeks of worrying!!!!!!! deja vu! *flashback* december 2003 until january 10th 2004 - waiting for the results of the ACET. i was a nervous wreck because of that.. but i'm happy with the result :) i hope i'm happy with the result this time too.... i don't have any grade below 80... yet i'm so nervous.. HELLO??? THE CUT-OFF!!!! ayoko na. I'm bad in chem kasi eh.. makes me nervous kasi i know that my grade in chem would probably be 2.75! and that's 5 units! zoo pa! 5 units! 10 units of science. pero that's okay.. :) it's over. and i did my sorta best naman in the finals. had to make major bawi! and i made bawi :)

they say that if you don't get nervous anymore, you should get nervous.. is that a good sign?

well..

jaye texted me last night.. well, to tell the story in a brief way, we're okay na - i hope. just had this misunderstanding. wouldn't go much into the details, it might get big again.

changed my layout... for the nth time.. hahaha nice namn diba?

gino had lunch here, coz i don't have classes until tomorrow.. we studied together, while taking care of margaux.. she's just so adorable.. then he left na for school, coz he's having his nat sci finals today.. i hope he does good.. he hasn't been sleeping well, coz of the countless requirements for school. i, on the other hand, have been that way for 2 semesters already. i'm so used to it.

i really have to study for zoo and chem.. and finish my english paper. why am i online?? stress-reliever i guess.

every time i think of zoo and chem, i blame myself for being in UST. i'm supposed to be studying in ateneo. i know it's much harder there, but hello? at least i'm taking up a course i really want. diba? enough of that. enjoy nalng what's left of my freshman year at UST. can't believe the school year's about to end na. i hope i make it to second year. *prays hard*

pray for me guys!!