Reality bites

My sister, Celine, just bought her own domain. Check out her blog here. She obviously got bored, but she's a great writer. Hope she posts more often. Her recent posts were about our family trips.

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Getting busier with school, but that's fine by me. I need to keep myself busy, otherwise I'd wallow at the fact that my mom already flew home to Manila last night. Kept crying last night, even while watching Big Bang Theory. I've been so used to my mom being with us here, and remember how I'd always rush home from school to spend time with her. Was making myself a cup of coffee after lunch, and it felt weird drinking it alone. She's my coffee buddy. Now it's just me and my sister in the big city. This is now my reality.

Me and my mom a month ago. I miss her already, and it hasn't even been 24 hours since she left NYC!

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Would love to post more about the past couple of days, and the adventures I had with Trish (my best friend when she came to visit), but I'm running late. Have a lot to do today. Will have to clean the apartment and rush to church to attend the 5:15 mass, then study for my classes this week. Will be having my Business Law midterm this week, so I need all the luck I can get. It's a very busy week. Have a good week, y'all!

It's about time!!!!

I finally got to revive my blog. It took me months to remember what my email address was. And let me tell you, it was mind-boggling. A piece of advice to all those who have multiple email addreses: KEEP A LIST OF ALL YOUR EMAIL ADDRESSES. I couldn't access my blogger account because I couldn't remember the email address I registered with this. I didn't even remember that I had a globelines webmail account 'til the time I was trying to login to blogger. Talk about memory gap!!

As much as I enjoy my tumblr account, this is my original blog, and I am strongly attached to it. So starting today, I would only use tumblr for what it's originally meant for- to reblog interesting stuff I find there (that's for me, not sure about the rest of you). It is in this blog where I saw how much I've grown. You see, I started blogging in 2005 as an outlet for my nursing school stress. I used to type whatever nonsensical things would pop in my mind. My most-mentioned topic is usually Andy Roddick or Margaux (my niece). I stopped blogging though because first, I got busy with work, second, I got busy with Facebook (HAHA), and lastly, I forgot my username. How smart right. :))

One busy day a few months ago (sarcastic), as I was busy looking at Balenciaga purses online, I remembered this blog from way back and checked if it was still alive. Then I got hooked on reading what I have posted years ago. As I was checking it out (while desperately trying to remember what my username was), I realized how much I've grown from the time I last posted here, which was in 2008. A lot has happened to me since then. From Nursing, I shifted careers, worked for our family business, and am now in business school in New York. I still feel like I'm living a dream. I mean, 3 years ago I thought that by now I'm earning as a Registered Nurse in Maryland (where I'm licensed) or in the Philippines. Either that or I'm in Med School. Both never happened though. I was never able to use my licenses in the Philippines and in MD, nor was I able to go to med school. But I've never been happier.

Glad I'm able to post my ramblings in this journal. Will definitely be posting here more often.

My mom leaves for the Philippines this Saturday, which means more time for school (and internet). Wow how lame. :))

10 Love Lessons from 'Sex and the City'

All girls love Sex and the City, I got this article from Yahoo! Personals, and just wanted to share this to everyone, SATC fan or not hehe :)
*Oana, remembered you while reading this article, I know you're one of the show's biggest fans :) Miss you girls!!

1. Single is Not a Dirty Word

The SATC gals transformed "single"--"spinster"'s more evolved cousin--from being a hole to a presence; they made singledom cool. Even when it hurt.

One of my favorite moments is when Carrie's silver Manolos get swiped from a smug-married's apartment and the friend refuses to reimburse her. She lectures Carrie about spending too much on shoes and not enough on family, playing right in to her singleton's shame.

This, after Carrie has bought engagement, wedding, shower, and baby gifts for her. In a genius move, Carrie registers herself at Manolo Blahnik just for those shoes, single "bride" that she is, forcing the friend to pay up. To me this said the single life is just as valid as the married. We deserve as many gifts and even blessings from our friends and society, regardless of what others might think of our struggles and choices.

2. It's Okay to Expose All to Your Girlfriends

Women talked about sex with their friends long before SATC. But the show gave us permission on a large scale to get graphic and detailed in cathartic and hilarious ways. It was like a six-season long Consciousness Raising group with better outfits.

3. Fate is Not Always Fate

It's so tempting to interpret the tea leaves of love, to decide that fate is (finally) working in our favor. When Trey saved Charlotte from being mowed down by a speeding taxi, she decided it was fate. Not just that he was a nice guy who saved her life, but that he must be the guy to live out her "marry tale" with.

Turns out--not so much, and I think after that divorce, Char developed a very different notion of fate, i.e.-we don't know how the universe works and just because it seems like synchronicity, it doesn't mean you have to marry the dude. A lesson better remembered than re-experienced.

4. Sometimes to Be Real You Have to Get Ugly

When Charlotte first met her handsomely chiseled divorce lawyer, she kept to the prim, nice decorum that defined her. When she realized she needed to be fierce --and ugly-- to battle her Bunny-in-law, she dropped him for sweaty, obnoxious, bald Harry Goldenblatt and then felt free to be as nasty as she wanted to be, fangs and all. Turns out he found her "incredibly sexy" anyway. And once she was able to shatter her preppy, WASPy notion of her ideal man, voila, there he was, right in front of her.

5. Be Vulnerable

More than anyone else on the show, Samantha and her mien of steel taught us that true strength is in opening and trust. She started to get this from her girl-flame Maria ("I've got monogomy, I think I caught it from you people") but mostly from her hot-hot boyfriend Smith Jarrod.

First, he forced on her his "perverse" desire to hold hands, and then, most touchingly, shaved off his golden locks when she lost hers to chemo. We all have an inner Samantha--the part that feigns bravado in the face of pain and trusts no one. Watching her set down her insecurity-as-sword reminded all us tough girls to do the same.

6. There's a Difference Between Childlike and Childish

In perhaps my favorite episode, a guy named Wade had a comic book store, a great record collection, and a scooter. Carrie was justifiably wooed when he drew a cartoon of her telling her to call him. And the girl needed some fun! Mr. Big? Sexy, complicated, but no bag of jacks.

With Wade, she played video games, took a spin on the scooter, got stoned on the balcony of his surprisingly vast Park Avenue apartment. Turned out the guy was living with his parents. And not only that, he lied to his mom that they were smoking Carrie's pot. Lesson? If he seems like a kid, investigate to make sure he's also an adult.

7. Know When to Kiss Goodbye

Miranda asked a date up to her apartment. He declined, claiming to have "an early meeting." Later, she asked Carrie's man of the hour for insight. Berger said, "He's just not that into you," and "When a guy's really into you, he's coming upstairs, meeting or no meeting."

Miranda is instantly liberated, giddy with the blame-free simplicity of it. Of course in real life, sadly, it's not always so simple. But through this and countless other moments, the show taught us that letting go is never easy--even when he's "not into you"--but that if you don't walk away when you know you should, only misery, over-analysis, and disappointment awaits.

8. Don't Mistake Scraps for Jewels

"It was the single most encouraging moment in our relationship." Was Carrie talking about Big sharing his heart with her? Giving her a thoughtful present? Nope. She said this when he gave her the "only" extra pink toothbrush head one night.

Sure, it was the only baby step toward accepting her into his life that he was capable of. But all of us need to love ourselves enough not to mistake glitter for diamonds, scraps for a meal--exactly what that toothbrush head was.

9. Read the Signs

When Carrie got engaged to Aidan, she promptly strung the gorgeous Harry Winston ring around her neck instead of putting it on her finger. Score one for costume designer Patricia Field for the fresh accessory, minus one very big one for the happy future of Carrie and Aidan. Both continued to ignore the signs of doom--like so many of us do--in exchange for hope.

It was a reminder to all of us not to ignore those persistent yet subtle doubts, accumulating red flags--and full-blown panic attacks--no matter how much we want something to work out.

10. Patience and Compromise

Sure, the show was often about taking, and Goddess knows the characters' self-absorption grated horribly sometimes. But as the ladies matured, we saw more and more examples of selfless compromise.

Miranda agreed to have her son Brady baptized even though it conflicted strongly with her beliefs; Charlotte converted to Judaism to be with Harry; and most hilariously, Harry put on underwear to sit on Charlotte's pristine white sofa. As for patience, the girls had a giant Birkin bag full of it for each other. And Carrie, in spite of herself had it big-time with Big.

Accomplished!

I cooked my very first real food just now, and I'm waiting for the rice to be cooked.. Hahaha not the usual heat and eat! I cooked my favorite, Chicken Adobo, mentored by my uncle of course, but I kinda did all the work. :) Yey! :)

Happy birthday Chi, Ninang Adel and Tita Len! :)

Michael Phelps Mania

7 gold medals, and he's not even done yet! Seriously?? :)

I don't have a life anymore. Hahahaha. See.

Claudine Margaret Tayag Montalla, BSN, RN

I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love you Lord! Super thank you for everything! I wouldn't have done this without you.. All the heartbreaks I still haven't gotten over (losing Daddy and Tatay) while preparing for the boards kind of motivated me but at the same time kind of made me doubt myself. BUT GOD IS GOOD!!! I did it! Oana, Inna, Krizka, Ate, Kuya and I were on our way home from Tagaytay when news broke out that the results were out. Sir Ori called Oana and told her she passed, then Oana asked him if Krizka and I passed. I couldn't stop screaming when I found out!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!! Party na toh!!! Love you Mama, Papa, my sisters, Kuya, my cousins, my girls, Nanay, my family, and just everyone who prayed for me! Thank you thank you thank you!

This one's for you Lord! And Tatay, and Daddy :)

Losing everything

Losing someone you love is one of the most heartbreaking things that can happen to anyone. Just when I was getting over losing Daddy (Mama's dad), I had to lose another person who is very dear to my heart. My Tatay (Papa's dad). I'm still in shock. I can't believe I lost my 2 grandfathers in just 3 weeks. My heart is broken into pieces I couldn't even describe how I'm feeling right now. I almost hit a post this afternoon while on my way home cos my mind was elsewhere. I am so lost right now. Friends may see me smiling, laughing or cracking a joke once in a while, but really, deep down, I am so depressed.

I feel like the whole world's crashing down on me. I should've gone with my parents when they rushed to the province last Sunday night. But because of review early the next day, I stayed home. Now I regret having stayed home. I didn't even see Tatay before he died. I remember the last time I saw him, which was 3 weeks ago, I went to Chi's room (where he was staying with Nanay here at our place) to kiss him goodnight, not knowing it would be the last time I would ever see him.

On the other hand, being the ever malambing daughter/niece/granddaughter, I'm thankful I hugged and kissed them every chance I got.

I used to think I was strong. Now I think otherwise.
I know God has a better plan for all of us. But I'm at this point where I want to question Him. I know life is harsh, but I never expected it to be mean to me this way.

How in the world am I going to concentrate on the boards when I'm being emotionally tortured?

I miss you Tatay and Daddy.

Hopes of being Mrs. Andy Roddick down the drain

So much for wanting to be Mrs. Andrew Stephen Roddick. He's engaged to Brooklyn Decker, a swimsuit model. The hell?! Grrr

First si Daddy, now this?! My life totally sucks.
I'm gonna be an old maid na cos wala na si Andy.
Tsktsk. I wish they don't end up together forever. Just hope they'd be like one of them hollywood couples whose marriages fail. Sorry for being bad.
I mean, it's kinda superficial of Andy to have gotten to know the girl thru his agent cos he saw her in an issue of Sports Illustrated wearing prolly a skimpy bikini and was mesmerized by her 'beautiful face'. Tsktsk.

I'm in an emotional rollercoaster right now. Words cannot express how crazy life has been. I am in awe at how God just keeps throwing crazy stuff at me. I'm not complaining, let Your will be done, Lord. You know what's best for me and my family. I just wish I could've spent that one day with Daddy. I shouldn't have gone to the grad ball and instead spent last friday with him. I just feel like shit right now. I love you daddy. I know you love Mommy, that's why you went with her when she came for you. We'll try to be strong nalang.

So. gusto ko nalang muna pasahin sarili ko cos I'm tired of crying.


This is how the girl looks like up close
Hahahaha fine, maganda siguro siya in person. Pero naman, Andy, SERIOUSLY?!!

CLEARED

:)

It's almost over!!

I can now say that my collegiate life is almost over. Finals are over and done with. Now I only have to complete the requirements for clearance & boards. I hope I get things done by next week. I'm really itching to get that well-rested sleep I desperately need.

It was my birthday yesterday, and I forgot to do something really important. I forgot to hear mass yesterday because I was too caught up studying for my Rizal and Constitution finals this morning. I only realized that I didn't hear mass yesterday while I was on my way to school. Tsk. So I made up for my neglected obligation and heard mass earlier this evening. :)
Had a great birthday, except for the fact that I studied for most of the day. Had lunch with my loves aka my family last night at Summer Palace (favorite Chinese resto) in Edsa Shang. I'm not done celebrating my 21st birthday yet though. Tomorrow, my family and I will be having a party at the National Children's Hospital through the Kythe Foundation. It's gonna be really exciting. Then later that night, close friends and I will be partying like crazy. Will post pictures soon. We will be enjoying our first weekend of almost freedom. Hahaha if there's such a thing.

After running errands the whole morning, I decided to treat myself and Oana to lunch - and I didn't abstain from meat ha. Bad girl, but hey, I was really hungry. And I felt like I deserved a little treat myself. So I helped myself to not just a scrumptious lunch, but also a well-deserved foot spa, manicure and pedicure at Gloss in Eastwood. My nails haven't been cleaned for a whole month, so I really needed it. Haha I was enjoying myself too much that I even fell asleep while having my nails done.

I can't believe 4 years have passed me by that quickly. Aaaah! I'm graduating na! I'm legal na in the States! Apriiiiiiiil!!! Can't wait for July!!! :)

Still alive

Hello everyone, yep, I'm still alive. These past few months have been crazy and really hectic, and the busy days are not yet over. It's supposed to be our semesteral break, yet I'm in school every single day. I swear I'm not oriented to the the days/dates na. That sounded weird. I keep asking everyone what day it is because I keep forgetting. Sunday doesn't feel like Sunday because I'm in school the whole day. Same with Saturday. I find myself going to school even on Sundays just for the Enrichment classes we're all obliged to attend. I mean, I know the college means well, it's just that it's too much.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I only have one sem left in college. Through my hard work (accompanied by constant whining), I was able to pass first semester with flying colors! Yipee :)

When I got home this evening, I finally got to watch Message in a Bottle, one of my favorite novels from Nicholas Sparks. I knew the storyline by heart (because of the book), but it was my first time to watch the movie even though I've had the VCD (see super antique na) for like the longest time. I sobbed like crazy. Finally got the courage to watch the last episode of Gilmore Girls also the other night, and just like with MIAB, cried during the entire duration of the episode. It's just so sad because GG is my favorite TV series. I mean, I've been watching it religiously since High School. I'm more attached to it than my attachment to Grey's Anatomy and Brothers and Sisters (although now I find bros & sis much nicer than Grey's). Couch potato. This is what I miss sorely, watching all these shows. Got no time to do anything other than schoolwork because of my horrible horrible schedule, yet I still find time to watch PBB. Haha.

Check out my pics nalang in Multiply, it's more updated than my blog. Haha :)

Getting there

I'm really busy right now, but I just went online to post Gogo's video and to check Andy's site. I couldn't really monitor his games, and could not even get myself to watch his games cos I get really nervous just watching and end up hating the player on the other end of the court every time. Haha. He celebrated his 25th birthday last Aug 30th, and got a really great bday gift. His opponent retired in the middle of the game because of an injury I think. So anyway, later, he'll be playing in the 4th round already, hope I catch his game though. I just wanna see him play. Ugh. One day I'll be in his box watching him play. It's free to dream right?

I shouldn't be online. We only have our prelims for two days. Torture, anyone? 6 subjects in two days. (I don't even know how I'll study Bioethics! Kaloka si Father e!) Management seminar on Wed. Quizzes Thursday-Friday. Review Saturday. Pilot study Sunday. Waaaaaah. See, I don't have a life.

Can't wait to graduate.

I'm so tired of whining, yet I couldn't help myself. In the end, it's all worth it. I hope. :)

Loving the rainy season for 2 reasons only

I'm not a big fan of the rain. Seriously, when you're stranded in school (UST, España for that matter) with no way home because your ride's stuck in EDSA, and you don't know how you'll get to the nearest LRT Station half-dry, half-drenched from the rain, you won't love the rain. However, floods in España give way to class suspensions almost all the time. The School Administration of course panics when they see heavy rains pouring like crazy, and suspends classes ASAP, which I love of course, only when I'm home pa and that's the time I find out that classes are suspended. The other reason I love the rain is because I feel like there's nothing I should do but sleep, because the sound of the rain just makes me feel sleepy. I don't like the rain though because it's sort of depressing, don't you think? And I hate it when I get back to class with my dirty legs and dirty shoes from the rain. Eeeck talaga! So thanks to Anna Lo for saving my butt last Wednesday! If I hadn't seen you in the building and got a ride with you, I would've been stuck in UST til 3pm (left the school at 11 something - but classes were suspended at 10)

Chi and I went to Shang yesterday with an agenda. When we got there, we bought tickets to (oo na, haha) A Love Story, then went to the American Eye Center to have our eyes checked. She still has 20-20 vision (good for her!), while my eyes just worsened by .25 and .50 lang naman (OD and OS respectively). The ophthalmologist who checked on me told me that by next year, I could have the LASIK na, which I really really want because glasses and contacts are just plain hassle. On the other hand, I don't want to have it done yet because I'm afraid of the residual grade that I might concur in the coming years or so. She told me naman that growth of the eye and all its structures stop by 20, so I'm a potential candidate na.

Okay, back to what Chi and I did yesterday, after having our eyes checked, we watched the movie. Okay. Movie review. I didn't like how Angelica Panganiban portrayed the character. This is my opinion naman, she seemed (sorry for the word) slutty. Tsk. I don't know. I have high regard for flight attendants and with how she acted on the role, she just seemed, I don't know, cheap? The character lang naman, not the person per se. But Aga Muhlach is just sooo hot. Haaay nako! Haha! But the crazy part about my watching the movie was the couple sitting beside me. I heard them making out making all smoochy noises while the guy kept grabbing the girl pa! I kept nuding Chi and we were sooo grossed out! I wanted to yell at them and tell them, "Get a room!!" but I was too shy. Pero grabe naman. I wasn't ready for that. They were like right beside me talaga. Sana if mga 2 or 3 seats apart from me. But noooo! Yuck. And to think the couple was like in their late 20's or early 30's. Tsktsk. In Shang Cineplex pa ha. Eeeew.

So after the movie, Chi and I had our late lunch/early dinner at Cibo. Diet. I only ate fish. O diba, see, I'm making an effort to lose weight na naman talaga eh. Then after that, we went to Fino to check out the bag I've been wanting since early June! When I got there, I saw it on display, and the lady behind the counter told me they only had 1 item left of that kind and color. I was so torn between buying something I really really liked and saving the money I had. In the end, I got the bag I've been eyeing in forever, because I hate the feeling, knowing I should've gotten something that I could've gotten. I don't want the bag to be something that got away. Haha. Drama, but it's true. In a VMars episode I recently watched, Veronica and Piz said something like, "why settle for anything less? I mean, when you really want something, you go for it." So. I went for it, and now I'm bankrupt. For the first time IN MY LIFE, I splurged on something big and from my own money. I mean my Mama didn't pay for it, I didn't use my Papa's credit card to be able to get that bag I wanted. But I like the feeling. I feel fulfilled, in a way. Pero dang, I don't have money anymore. Good thing no classes today, I won't have to spend a single cent.

In Andy news, I stayed up til past 3 this morning because I caught Andy playing live at the Cincys. He was playing against this newbie Ferrer guy, but unfortunately lost to him. I wasn't disappointed though. (How come I never get disappointed with Andy? ie with his matches - I wouldn't know) I really thought he had a big chance of winning, but I went to sleep after he lost the tie-break in the first set because my eyes just couldn't take it anymore. I love Andy Roddick forever. :)

Great game tonight

It's a Dindin vs. Chichi match tonight.

Andy Roddick will be playing against Novak Djokovic (Chi is totally obsessed with this guy) in the quarterfinals of the Rogers Cup. This is their first meeting on court, and I hope hope hope that Andy marches thru the finals easily. I like Novak because he's just my age and he plays really good, but I love Andy, as simple as that.

I only went to school once for this week, yet I'm dead tired. I hate being sick. Tsk tsk.

Crunch time for thesis. It's gonna be a loooooooong 2 months.. We have to be done with everything by the first week of October. Lord, we need your help BIG TIME. :)

I really hope Andy wins! Go Andy!!! :D I'm gonna stay up late just for you tonight :)

Busy in this drought

I have been nothing but busy these past few weeks. Too busy in fact, that the stress has affected my whole being. I got sick and I wasn't able to take care of my body because I couldn't let the stress get out of my system. I have accepted the fact that the stress won't leave me any time soon. It's a fact. I mean, it's almost crunch time for our thesis. I need my healthy self. And because I don't want to get any much worse than I already am, I have been feeding on skyflakes and soups all week. And I intend to continue this diet until I am fully well. I have absented myself from duty last Monday, and I know it means make-up duty, but it is better to have make-up duty than to aggravate my condition. For the first time, I felt like I did something right (regarding my health). I have been known for hating make-up duty and wasting time, but this time, I wasn't wasting time, this time, I was concerned about my well-being. I hate being the patient. That's the weird part about being sick, I know most of the interventions, yet whenever I'm in pain, I want my Mom to be here. With her by my side, I feel like things are going to be much better. So much for me being a 'young adult'. Haha. I still desperately need my parents.

On a happier note, Papa celebrated his 51st birthday with a big birthday dinner with our family. We had dinner last Saturday (August 4th - his actual birthday) at Heat in Edsa Shang. I have always loved Heat. And am still loving it. I think it's partly the reason why I got sick in the first place. I think I ate too much. Ohwell. It was a sort of dramatic night. We all had birthday messages for Papa, and I cried while I was saying mine. I have always been close to both my Mama and my Papa, and some think that Papa has always spoiled me, but he doesn't spoil me that much naman, I mean normal lang naman eh. And I needed to thank Papa for everything. As in everything. I mean he and Mama have always given me more than what I wanted. More of si Papa, cos Mama doesn't want to spoil us at all. And if it weren't for my Papa, I wouldn't have been enrolled in UST. I would have followed my dream and come next year, I would not know what I would want to do with my life. Because of him, I have direction. Thanks Papa. I love you!

Any blog entry of mine wouldn't be complete without Andy news. :) He won last week in the Legg Mason Classic Tourney in DC. I don't know who he beat since I wasn't able to watch it, but I'm so proud of him. He also won his match yesterday in the 2nd round of the Rogers Cup in Montreal, Canada, beating Arnaud Clement. He's booked himself a seat into the 3rd round. Yipee! My sister was able to watch, but I slept early last night eh. See! I'm still updated even if I'm crazy busy with school.

By the way, before I forget, we had our Grad pictures taken last Tuesday. Yes, I was still sick then (still am now), but I hope I managed to get good pictures. I hope I hope :) I would post the pictures as soon as I get hold of them :) Check out my multiply nalang for the pictures, if you want.

Back to school na naman tomorrow. I just realized, I haven't gone to school in almost a week. Darn I hope I get better na. Was absent once lang naman eh, luck was just on my side the past couple of days :)

God bless everyone :)

He did it!!

Lucky for me, I was able to catch Andy's finals match against Mahut live last night on Star Sports. He did it! He won!


Hopefully this'll be the start of his winning streak :D


Hopefully also, his winning the Artois Championship would also help my luck.


It's only the 2nd week of class and already I'm feeling (not beginning ah) the pressure.

Of forehands and backhands

NEWSFLASH.

Andy just won his way to the finals of the Stella Artois Championship. I am soooo proud of him. I have been watching play in that tourney for years, 6 to be exact. :) He got kicked out of the French Open on its first round, so it's nice to see him with his head held up high and into the finals. Although in a span of 2 weeks, he dropped from 3rd in the world to 5th, his game seemingly improved. Go Andy! Wimbys start on the 26th. I hope he breezes through the grand slam and ends up with the title. *keeping my fingers crossed*

Summer's over and I'm onto my last year in college. Classes started last Wednesday, and what was said to us during the orientation completely left me overwhelmed and aghast. Ma'am Chua said that we have to finish all our cases before the end of the 1st semester. Hello? I've only had 1 actual and 1 assisted delivery, when we need 5 of each; 4 major and 2 minor surgeries, when we need 5 of each (again); I lost the paper containing all my cord cases, and finally, NO initial care. How can I complete all of those when I have thesis to take care of, RLE duty to stress with, classes to worry about, and very little time to accomplish everything?

It's only the beginning of the academic year, yet I'm seriously screaming for help. Waaaaah!

I know I can do this. Positive thinking, Dindin.

On a lighter note, I ended my summer vacation with a bang! We go to HK every year so this really shouldn't be a big deal, but it was a big deal! We had so much fun! I went to HK with my family (plus Ria and Mig, her brother), and had a fab time! I seriously enjoyed every minute of it, except for the drama that happened on our third night there. My family and I stayed at the Disney's Hollywood Hotel on our first night and transferred to Marco Polo Gateway thereafter. We did some serious shopping. :) Weeeeh! Ria and Mig stayed at Excelsior and Mandarin, which are both on HK island, but we were together every day. We totally loved the shops in Granville, Cameron and of course, Castle Peak in Lai Chi Kok. Ria! We have to go back! :) Also, Ria and I got new cameras, which we so love. *sigh* I can't believe this happened only last week! Aaaaaah!!

I watched Ocean's 13 last week. Have you seen it? I was totally smitten by George Clooney. Brad Pitt was hot, but not as hot as George Clooney. Hmmm. I have to look for my ER dvds. :)

I'm seriously gonna make things right this time. This is my last chance to do good in school, and I'm going to really work hard. Promise. I know this is the beginning of a very long year, but I can and will survive. I am a fighter and a survivor, and I'm really really gonna work my butt off this year.

Having a boring summer

It's so like me to complain. On the other hand, at least I am having a break from school and duty, and simply chilling at home. But then again, too much sleeping and too much bumming around kind of bores me. I have nothing to do. Hurray!! But I'm dying here. Waaah. But seriously, I still love being a bum. This is better than studying for school and waking up really early just to go to school.

Spent the weekend with the Montalla girls. Ate Gay and Ate Joy treated us to an overnight stay at the Diamond Hotel, just us girls plus Kuya RJ (Ate Mae never leaves without Kuya). Fun fun fun! Thank you to my gorgeous twin cousins! More pictures on my multiply.

I knew it, nothing beats last summer. If only this year it could be better. Or kahit mapantayan manlang eh. Tsk.

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It has been almost 7 years since I first fell in love with Andy Roddick. I am still in love with him. Aaaaaah.

I don't care if he's not winning that much anymore. I'll always be his number one fan.
ALWAYS AND FOREVER.
This is what doing nothing does.

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I can't believe that it's May already. In a few weeks, it's gonna be my last year in school na. I don't think I'm ready yet.
I'm not yet ready for the real world.
I just want to have fun.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

Bum

I love being a bum. Hahaha

I just hate the fact that I am gaining weight by being one.

Done with completion duty - hooray for me!
Kulang paden though. I still need 4 surgeries (3 minor and 1 major).
I still need 8 deliveries (4 assist, 4 actual)

So what? Let me worry about these cases when school starts hahahaha!

I'm hoping and praying this summer beats last year. That's quite hard though considering the fact that last summer was the best I've ever had. We'll see.

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FREE

I am so free hahahaha :)

I finally turned in my literary thesis early this morning. Labor of Love, that's for sure. I did the whole thing sans the internet connection cos my dsl got busted. My PC + my internet= not meant to be. My broadband finally was restored to its old glory just this afternoon, but when I got home from the movies (bonding with my sisters), wala, the pc let me down once again. and to think it has only been like 2 months since i got it fixed. Papa, buy me na a new one please please. Hay nako.

Ohwells.

I should be thankful. Hate myself for being so whiny most of the time when I have so many things to be thankful for. Ingrata. Bad bad me.

On a high note, today is the first day of my sleepmore nights hahaha, if there's such a thing. Since Sunday, I've only been sleeping 2-3hours/night. I never imagined before that I could actually do that. Never. But for an entire week, I hitched rides with Oana cos there was no way I could actually have the courage to drive knowing that I might fall asleep while I'm on the road. Bad. Di kaya.

And now, all my hard work has paid off. I'm hoping my professor actually likes my thesis. 171 pages dang. And to think I'm not a Lit major or a Humanities student. I'm a Nursing student goodness gracious. At least I was able to experience what it would be like had I chosen the course I really wanted to take, right? The only downside to my making the thesis was the time given. I only did the whole thing for a month. Not only that, I had major subjects to worry about, patients to worry about. Last week, while I was on duty, I actually fell asleep during my lunch break in the steaming hot students' room. Crazy crazy.

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Girl bonding with my two younger sibs this afternoon. I got home around 1, chatted with Trish til 4, then slept for an hour. Drive-thru with Gogo and Yaya at Jollibee, then rushed home to dress up for a 6pm movie. Watched Because I Said So with Chi and Ciara. I actually miss hanging out with them. They make me feel young and at the same time kind of mature. *sigh* this is the reason I'm not looking forward to leaving home. See. I'm still my parents' baby. Haha

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I'm so addicted to the PBB 2 even though I'm so cramped with work. I heart Bruce Quebral. Hahaha pathetic of me, pero what the heck. He's smokin' hot. hahahahaa.

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