Still alive

Hello everyone, yep, I'm still alive. These past few months have been crazy and really hectic, and the busy days are not yet over. It's supposed to be our semesteral break, yet I'm in school every single day. I swear I'm not oriented to the the days/dates na. That sounded weird. I keep asking everyone what day it is because I keep forgetting. Sunday doesn't feel like Sunday because I'm in school the whole day. Same with Saturday. I find myself going to school even on Sundays just for the Enrichment classes we're all obliged to attend. I mean, I know the college means well, it's just that it's too much.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I only have one sem left in college. Through my hard work (accompanied by constant whining), I was able to pass first semester with flying colors! Yipee :)

When I got home this evening, I finally got to watch Message in a Bottle, one of my favorite novels from Nicholas Sparks. I knew the storyline by heart (because of the book), but it was my first time to watch the movie even though I've had the VCD (see super antique na) for like the longest time. I sobbed like crazy. Finally got the courage to watch the last episode of Gilmore Girls also the other night, and just like with MIAB, cried during the entire duration of the episode. It's just so sad because GG is my favorite TV series. I mean, I've been watching it religiously since High School. I'm more attached to it than my attachment to Grey's Anatomy and Brothers and Sisters (although now I find bros & sis much nicer than Grey's). Couch potato. This is what I miss sorely, watching all these shows. Got no time to do anything other than schoolwork because of my horrible horrible schedule, yet I still find time to watch PBB. Haha.

Check out my pics nalang in Multiply, it's more updated than my blog. Haha :)

Getting there

I'm really busy right now, but I just went online to post Gogo's video and to check Andy's site. I couldn't really monitor his games, and could not even get myself to watch his games cos I get really nervous just watching and end up hating the player on the other end of the court every time. Haha. He celebrated his 25th birthday last Aug 30th, and got a really great bday gift. His opponent retired in the middle of the game because of an injury I think. So anyway, later, he'll be playing in the 4th round already, hope I catch his game though. I just wanna see him play. Ugh. One day I'll be in his box watching him play. It's free to dream right?

I shouldn't be online. We only have our prelims for two days. Torture, anyone? 6 subjects in two days. (I don't even know how I'll study Bioethics! Kaloka si Father e!) Management seminar on Wed. Quizzes Thursday-Friday. Review Saturday. Pilot study Sunday. Waaaaaah. See, I don't have a life.

Can't wait to graduate.

I'm so tired of whining, yet I couldn't help myself. In the end, it's all worth it. I hope. :)

Loving the rainy season for 2 reasons only

I'm not a big fan of the rain. Seriously, when you're stranded in school (UST, España for that matter) with no way home because your ride's stuck in EDSA, and you don't know how you'll get to the nearest LRT Station half-dry, half-drenched from the rain, you won't love the rain. However, floods in España give way to class suspensions almost all the time. The School Administration of course panics when they see heavy rains pouring like crazy, and suspends classes ASAP, which I love of course, only when I'm home pa and that's the time I find out that classes are suspended. The other reason I love the rain is because I feel like there's nothing I should do but sleep, because the sound of the rain just makes me feel sleepy. I don't like the rain though because it's sort of depressing, don't you think? And I hate it when I get back to class with my dirty legs and dirty shoes from the rain. Eeeck talaga! So thanks to Anna Lo for saving my butt last Wednesday! If I hadn't seen you in the building and got a ride with you, I would've been stuck in UST til 3pm (left the school at 11 something - but classes were suspended at 10)

Chi and I went to Shang yesterday with an agenda. When we got there, we bought tickets to (oo na, haha) A Love Story, then went to the American Eye Center to have our eyes checked. She still has 20-20 vision (good for her!), while my eyes just worsened by .25 and .50 lang naman (OD and OS respectively). The ophthalmologist who checked on me told me that by next year, I could have the LASIK na, which I really really want because glasses and contacts are just plain hassle. On the other hand, I don't want to have it done yet because I'm afraid of the residual grade that I might concur in the coming years or so. She told me naman that growth of the eye and all its structures stop by 20, so I'm a potential candidate na.

Okay, back to what Chi and I did yesterday, after having our eyes checked, we watched the movie. Okay. Movie review. I didn't like how Angelica Panganiban portrayed the character. This is my opinion naman, she seemed (sorry for the word) slutty. Tsk. I don't know. I have high regard for flight attendants and with how she acted on the role, she just seemed, I don't know, cheap? The character lang naman, not the person per se. But Aga Muhlach is just sooo hot. Haaay nako! Haha! But the crazy part about my watching the movie was the couple sitting beside me. I heard them making out making all smoochy noises while the guy kept grabbing the girl pa! I kept nuding Chi and we were sooo grossed out! I wanted to yell at them and tell them, "Get a room!!" but I was too shy. Pero grabe naman. I wasn't ready for that. They were like right beside me talaga. Sana if mga 2 or 3 seats apart from me. But noooo! Yuck. And to think the couple was like in their late 20's or early 30's. Tsktsk. In Shang Cineplex pa ha. Eeeew.

So after the movie, Chi and I had our late lunch/early dinner at Cibo. Diet. I only ate fish. O diba, see, I'm making an effort to lose weight na naman talaga eh. Then after that, we went to Fino to check out the bag I've been wanting since early June! When I got there, I saw it on display, and the lady behind the counter told me they only had 1 item left of that kind and color. I was so torn between buying something I really really liked and saving the money I had. In the end, I got the bag I've been eyeing in forever, because I hate the feeling, knowing I should've gotten something that I could've gotten. I don't want the bag to be something that got away. Haha. Drama, but it's true. In a VMars episode I recently watched, Veronica and Piz said something like, "why settle for anything less? I mean, when you really want something, you go for it." So. I went for it, and now I'm bankrupt. For the first time IN MY LIFE, I splurged on something big and from my own money. I mean my Mama didn't pay for it, I didn't use my Papa's credit card to be able to get that bag I wanted. But I like the feeling. I feel fulfilled, in a way. Pero dang, I don't have money anymore. Good thing no classes today, I won't have to spend a single cent.

In Andy news, I stayed up til past 3 this morning because I caught Andy playing live at the Cincys. He was playing against this newbie Ferrer guy, but unfortunately lost to him. I wasn't disappointed though. (How come I never get disappointed with Andy? ie with his matches - I wouldn't know) I really thought he had a big chance of winning, but I went to sleep after he lost the tie-break in the first set because my eyes just couldn't take it anymore. I love Andy Roddick forever. :)

Great game tonight

It's a Dindin vs. Chichi match tonight.

Andy Roddick will be playing against Novak Djokovic (Chi is totally obsessed with this guy) in the quarterfinals of the Rogers Cup. This is their first meeting on court, and I hope hope hope that Andy marches thru the finals easily. I like Novak because he's just my age and he plays really good, but I love Andy, as simple as that.

I only went to school once for this week, yet I'm dead tired. I hate being sick. Tsk tsk.

Crunch time for thesis. It's gonna be a loooooooong 2 months.. We have to be done with everything by the first week of October. Lord, we need your help BIG TIME. :)

I really hope Andy wins! Go Andy!!! :D I'm gonna stay up late just for you tonight :)

Busy in this drought

I have been nothing but busy these past few weeks. Too busy in fact, that the stress has affected my whole being. I got sick and I wasn't able to take care of my body because I couldn't let the stress get out of my system. I have accepted the fact that the stress won't leave me any time soon. It's a fact. I mean, it's almost crunch time for our thesis. I need my healthy self. And because I don't want to get any much worse than I already am, I have been feeding on skyflakes and soups all week. And I intend to continue this diet until I am fully well. I have absented myself from duty last Monday, and I know it means make-up duty, but it is better to have make-up duty than to aggravate my condition. For the first time, I felt like I did something right (regarding my health). I have been known for hating make-up duty and wasting time, but this time, I wasn't wasting time, this time, I was concerned about my well-being. I hate being the patient. That's the weird part about being sick, I know most of the interventions, yet whenever I'm in pain, I want my Mom to be here. With her by my side, I feel like things are going to be much better. So much for me being a 'young adult'. Haha. I still desperately need my parents.

On a happier note, Papa celebrated his 51st birthday with a big birthday dinner with our family. We had dinner last Saturday (August 4th - his actual birthday) at Heat in Edsa Shang. I have always loved Heat. And am still loving it. I think it's partly the reason why I got sick in the first place. I think I ate too much. Ohwell. It was a sort of dramatic night. We all had birthday messages for Papa, and I cried while I was saying mine. I have always been close to both my Mama and my Papa, and some think that Papa has always spoiled me, but he doesn't spoil me that much naman, I mean normal lang naman eh. And I needed to thank Papa for everything. As in everything. I mean he and Mama have always given me more than what I wanted. More of si Papa, cos Mama doesn't want to spoil us at all. And if it weren't for my Papa, I wouldn't have been enrolled in UST. I would have followed my dream and come next year, I would not know what I would want to do with my life. Because of him, I have direction. Thanks Papa. I love you!

Any blog entry of mine wouldn't be complete without Andy news. :) He won last week in the Legg Mason Classic Tourney in DC. I don't know who he beat since I wasn't able to watch it, but I'm so proud of him. He also won his match yesterday in the 2nd round of the Rogers Cup in Montreal, Canada, beating Arnaud Clement. He's booked himself a seat into the 3rd round. Yipee! My sister was able to watch, but I slept early last night eh. See! I'm still updated even if I'm crazy busy with school.

By the way, before I forget, we had our Grad pictures taken last Tuesday. Yes, I was still sick then (still am now), but I hope I managed to get good pictures. I hope I hope :) I would post the pictures as soon as I get hold of them :) Check out my multiply nalang for the pictures, if you want.

Back to school na naman tomorrow. I just realized, I haven't gone to school in almost a week. Darn I hope I get better na. Was absent once lang naman eh, luck was just on my side the past couple of days :)

God bless everyone :)

He did it!!

Lucky for me, I was able to catch Andy's finals match against Mahut live last night on Star Sports. He did it! He won!


Hopefully this'll be the start of his winning streak :D


Hopefully also, his winning the Artois Championship would also help my luck.


It's only the 2nd week of class and already I'm feeling (not beginning ah) the pressure.

Of forehands and backhands

NEWSFLASH.

Andy just won his way to the finals of the Stella Artois Championship. I am soooo proud of him. I have been watching play in that tourney for years, 6 to be exact. :) He got kicked out of the French Open on its first round, so it's nice to see him with his head held up high and into the finals. Although in a span of 2 weeks, he dropped from 3rd in the world to 5th, his game seemingly improved. Go Andy! Wimbys start on the 26th. I hope he breezes through the grand slam and ends up with the title. *keeping my fingers crossed*

Summer's over and I'm onto my last year in college. Classes started last Wednesday, and what was said to us during the orientation completely left me overwhelmed and aghast. Ma'am Chua said that we have to finish all our cases before the end of the 1st semester. Hello? I've only had 1 actual and 1 assisted delivery, when we need 5 of each; 4 major and 2 minor surgeries, when we need 5 of each (again); I lost the paper containing all my cord cases, and finally, NO initial care. How can I complete all of those when I have thesis to take care of, RLE duty to stress with, classes to worry about, and very little time to accomplish everything?

It's only the beginning of the academic year, yet I'm seriously screaming for help. Waaaaah!

I know I can do this. Positive thinking, Dindin.

On a lighter note, I ended my summer vacation with a bang! We go to HK every year so this really shouldn't be a big deal, but it was a big deal! We had so much fun! I went to HK with my family (plus Ria and Mig, her brother), and had a fab time! I seriously enjoyed every minute of it, except for the drama that happened on our third night there. My family and I stayed at the Disney's Hollywood Hotel on our first night and transferred to Marco Polo Gateway thereafter. We did some serious shopping. :) Weeeeh! Ria and Mig stayed at Excelsior and Mandarin, which are both on HK island, but we were together every day. We totally loved the shops in Granville, Cameron and of course, Castle Peak in Lai Chi Kok. Ria! We have to go back! :) Also, Ria and I got new cameras, which we so love. *sigh* I can't believe this happened only last week! Aaaaaah!!

I watched Ocean's 13 last week. Have you seen it? I was totally smitten by George Clooney. Brad Pitt was hot, but not as hot as George Clooney. Hmmm. I have to look for my ER dvds. :)

I'm seriously gonna make things right this time. This is my last chance to do good in school, and I'm going to really work hard. Promise. I know this is the beginning of a very long year, but I can and will survive. I am a fighter and a survivor, and I'm really really gonna work my butt off this year.

Having a boring summer

It's so like me to complain. On the other hand, at least I am having a break from school and duty, and simply chilling at home. But then again, too much sleeping and too much bumming around kind of bores me. I have nothing to do. Hurray!! But I'm dying here. Waaah. But seriously, I still love being a bum. This is better than studying for school and waking up really early just to go to school.

Spent the weekend with the Montalla girls. Ate Gay and Ate Joy treated us to an overnight stay at the Diamond Hotel, just us girls plus Kuya RJ (Ate Mae never leaves without Kuya). Fun fun fun! Thank you to my gorgeous twin cousins! More pictures on my multiply.

I knew it, nothing beats last summer. If only this year it could be better. Or kahit mapantayan manlang eh. Tsk.

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It has been almost 7 years since I first fell in love with Andy Roddick. I am still in love with him. Aaaaaah.

I don't care if he's not winning that much anymore. I'll always be his number one fan.
ALWAYS AND FOREVER.
This is what doing nothing does.

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I can't believe that it's May already. In a few weeks, it's gonna be my last year in school na. I don't think I'm ready yet.
I'm not yet ready for the real world.
I just want to have fun.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

Bum

I love being a bum. Hahaha

I just hate the fact that I am gaining weight by being one.

Done with completion duty - hooray for me!
Kulang paden though. I still need 4 surgeries (3 minor and 1 major).
I still need 8 deliveries (4 assist, 4 actual)

So what? Let me worry about these cases when school starts hahahaha!

I'm hoping and praying this summer beats last year. That's quite hard though considering the fact that last summer was the best I've ever had. We'll see.

:)

FREE

I am so free hahahaha :)

I finally turned in my literary thesis early this morning. Labor of Love, that's for sure. I did the whole thing sans the internet connection cos my dsl got busted. My PC + my internet= not meant to be. My broadband finally was restored to its old glory just this afternoon, but when I got home from the movies (bonding with my sisters), wala, the pc let me down once again. and to think it has only been like 2 months since i got it fixed. Papa, buy me na a new one please please. Hay nako.

Ohwells.

I should be thankful. Hate myself for being so whiny most of the time when I have so many things to be thankful for. Ingrata. Bad bad me.

On a high note, today is the first day of my sleepmore nights hahaha, if there's such a thing. Since Sunday, I've only been sleeping 2-3hours/night. I never imagined before that I could actually do that. Never. But for an entire week, I hitched rides with Oana cos there was no way I could actually have the courage to drive knowing that I might fall asleep while I'm on the road. Bad. Di kaya.

And now, all my hard work has paid off. I'm hoping my professor actually likes my thesis. 171 pages dang. And to think I'm not a Lit major or a Humanities student. I'm a Nursing student goodness gracious. At least I was able to experience what it would be like had I chosen the course I really wanted to take, right? The only downside to my making the thesis was the time given. I only did the whole thing for a month. Not only that, I had major subjects to worry about, patients to worry about. Last week, while I was on duty, I actually fell asleep during my lunch break in the steaming hot students' room. Crazy crazy.

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Girl bonding with my two younger sibs this afternoon. I got home around 1, chatted with Trish til 4, then slept for an hour. Drive-thru with Gogo and Yaya at Jollibee, then rushed home to dress up for a 6pm movie. Watched Because I Said So with Chi and Ciara. I actually miss hanging out with them. They make me feel young and at the same time kind of mature. *sigh* this is the reason I'm not looking forward to leaving home. See. I'm still my parents' baby. Haha

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I'm so addicted to the PBB 2 even though I'm so cramped with work. I heart Bruce Quebral. Hahaha pathetic of me, pero what the heck. He's smokin' hot. hahahahaa.

Imissyoutrish

Grace under pressure

I should have grace under pressure. But no, though I try hard to show people I'm not stressed, it still comes out because I get agitated and irritated easily. Bad bad. That's why now, I'm gonna chill. Even if I have tons to do. Prelims next week, but there's something to look forward to. No duty on Saturday and no school on Mon-Tuesday. Long weekend for me! Yahoo! :)

Plenty of time to study, so no more whining!

I believe the children are our future

Working in the Peds ward opened up my eyes to reality.

I always get so sad and so heartbroken whenever I read the charts of the patients I am assigned to monitor, but upon approaching them, I feel so much better seeing their tiny faces light up as they see me. These children don't deserve to be sick. These kids are the sweetest, most endearing people I've met, and yet they're bedbound. Some won't even make it to my age, yet I can see no fear in their eyes. My recent patients, Reeve (with hepatoblastoma) and Edward (with urosepsis), make me look forward to duty days. Reeve is diagnosed with hepatoblastoma, an illness with a very poor prognosis, but once you meet him in the ward, you won't even notice that he is terminally ill. He always has that big smile on his face that makes you think he doesn't feel any pain at all. He's burning with fever yet he finds energy to play with me and laughs endlessly while I give him tepid sponge baths with tickles on the side. It's just so sad that he's sick. He probably needs a liver transplant. I just found out last week that the transplant costs more than a heart transplant. A liver transplant costs P9M, and heck thats a lot of money. If only he had that much, he has a chance of having a longer life.

These kids made me realize that I am very lucky to be healthy and to be living a very blessed life. So even with just giving them my all when I'm on duty, I am also able to share a part of me with them. Every night, I pray for all these unfortunate children who are constantly confined in the Pedia ward, because they all deserve a happy childhood. There was this one instance in the ward that really brought me to tears, and I literally bawled my eyes out as I was seeing this little boy of only about 6 or 7 being inserted with a Nasogastric Tube. I could see him yelping for help, but what can I do? He needs that for nutrition. I really just hope that they would all get well and have happy lives.

Dramatic much? Our CI, one of my favorite professors too, asked us to make a sort of reflection on our past duty days in the Peds ward. That's really how I felt. Though what I wrote may have been a hodge-podge of thoughts or utterly the most grammatically incorrect piece or whatever you call it that I've ever written in my entire life, those are the first things that came to my mind. I think one of the other things that I have just realized is that we should all be like them. Childlike in every way. Though they're sick, you can see that they're all still children, enjoying what they have, and just living life best way they could.Back to reality. (Stop it, din. I sound redundant)

Saturday duty sucks.
I only have 1 day to rest. Well technically, because I only have 1 free day for the entire week, I only have 1 day to study for 6 quizzes (only this week), do homework, rest, and spend quality time with my family, and Gino. I swear, how depressing is that?! Okay, stop saying it, you're blessed. I am blessed. So I guess I have to stop complaining. I will, in a few months. Believe me, I just want to get the whole sem over with. Know the other thing that makes Saturday duty sucks even more? I get to hear mass alone. Yep. I get home at 6.30, and the mass is at 6, so I have very little time to get ready for our Family dinners. At least. Oh stop whining! I'm blessed.

Save me

Someone please save me. I'm fighting flu, and at the same time buried with paperworks for RLE, countless projects for minor subjects, endless quizzes, and tireless RLE duties from thurs-sat. I seriously want to graduate already so I can chill at home after taking the Boards. Patience, Dindin. 1 more year to go. :)

Happy New Year everyone, :)