If only I had the license to kill someone. Grrr. I'm a wholesome person. But really, if only I could (and God won't punish me for it), I'd
strangle nalang the person.
I thought my hellish week was over. But no, hell month has just begun. Yesterday was the last day of my prelim exams. Gawd. 60% of the junior batch failed Pharma. I swear, it was sooo hard. Even my prof apologized to us because she found the exam difficult, as well. She didn't make the test, btw. Okay, so here's where my story starts. So last Sunday, I had my night call duty right? I thought it would be fun. At first, it was fun. It was the perfect time to study for my MS long exam which we had the following day. We were just chilling in the Students' room, then because the staff turned off the a/c in the room, we were forced to move to the workroom, where 2 of the staff nurses were. So anyway, I got really sleepy around 11pm, and because based on my classmates' stories on their nightcall, the nurses gave them mattresses for them to sleep on, I made my presence felt by lying down on the couch. Papansin ba. So that the nurses would ask us to get the mattresses from wherever. But nooooo. It never happened. Insensitive? Probably. Well, I couldn't blame them now, cos what happened changed my life forever. Haha drama nun ah. Anyway, at around 12 midnight, while I was having my nap, my classmates woke me up cos there was an emergency surgery. And I was supposed to scrub in. So I get up, help the scrub nurse prepare stuff and wait for the patient to arrive. Scrubbed in at around 1.30am, and surgery began at 2.21am. And ended at 4.30am. So I literally had no sleep. I was sleepy the entire time. While the surgeon was suturing, I was preparing the needle and suture. While doing that, I accidentally pricked my finger. Which alarmed me. I was terrified. To the point that I perspired like crazy. I mean, what if the patient has hepa? Fudge diba?! So I told my scrub nurse, and he told me to scrub out and clean my finger. So I went to the scrub room, removed my right glove, and thank God. No sign of blood, which means I didn't prick my finger. Just the glove. Grabe. Sobrang thank you Lord. After that, I just sat in one of the stools at the side of the OR suite, and after the surgery, I told my scrub nurse I'd be cleaning the instruments nalang (which I DIDN'T WANT TO DO, because ANDAMI nun. And sobra sleepy nako), but he told me to just get a basin and he'd take care of the whole mess, cos I need sleep daw because of my exams the next day. How sweet diba. Sayang di ko type eh. Haha.
--I know it's coincidental, but isn't it cool that my first and last cases are both emergency cases? Wala lang. As if naman I could brag about the cases where I scrubbed in, eh 3 lang yun. Pathetic eh noh. Haha Summer babawi ako. --
When I took the exams in MS, I was the first who passed my paper, basically because I didn't review my answers anymore, since I was already falling asleep. Hello?! Try not sleeping for an entire night. Annoying. So I went straight home after that, and tried to catch some zzz's, which I got at 5pm pa. Maryosep. In the middle of my beautiful sleep, Oana and Sheila texted me,telling me to meet them and the rest of the RLE at 7am the following day. We didn't have classes kasi on Tuesday, because Prelims were on Wed-Fri. It's the college's tradition that we have one day free before the prelims. Hello? Walang tulog tapos pupunta sa school? Because of the effing case presentation our CI gave us. She assigned that on Monday, due Friday same week. Wow. Thanks for the consideration. Not only that, she expected us to submit individual Patient Care Records on one of the surgeries where we scrubbed in. I submitted my patient care record, aka case study kong bulok, yesterday,and she returned it. DI DAW TAMA FORMAT. Gosh. Malay ko bang case study. She told us that it was supposed to be Nursing Care Analysis. Eh in our previous shift, that was the PCR. And now she tells us she wants a friggin Case Study?! Graaaaabe mehn. Now ko lang ginagawa and I swear to God, it's so hard. Naiiyak nako. Pano, my case ain't like your typical case. Its Anatomy and Pathophsyio is so hard to explain because Abdominal Trauma eh. Andaming organs affected, goodness gracious. Good luck to me.
AND. My stint in the OR is over (so sad, promise,major bawi in the OR on summer. 3 cases palang ako. crap), and now we'll be having our Community Health Nursing. Crap. Sobra dami gagawin. Paperwork, whateverwork, doesn't work for me. I shouldn't be nega. I promised myself I'd look at the brighter things in life. This time I'd be more optimistic. God won't give me this much work if He knew I couldn't do it. I could manage all the stress that I'm having. Thank you Lord.
My body is now used to being asleep for only 4-6 hours. Kanina, I woke up around 10, when I slept at 4 ha. At least I don't feel groggy because of sleep-deprivation. I'm now used to it e.
Thank you Sam Milby, for not letting me down. You were so gwapo, cute, hot, adorable in the movie, that for 2 hours or so, I forgot about my problems in school. I am, again, in love with him. Now I know that there are 2 reasons why God hasn't made me meet my perfect match yet. He's either a) Sam Milby, or b) Andy roddick :) I think it's letter B though. hahahaha
Still lovin' life despite all the difficulty. I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me :)