happy happy happy happy :)

only 1 more week til school starts. I'm gonna enjoy what's left of my break.
Haha still not enrolled. Oana wasn't able to enroll for me last Wed. I'll enroll nalang next week. Good thing Block system sa UST. At least. :)

My cousins will be coming home tomorrow! Yey :) Major bonding for sure. :)

Happy Happy Happy!

Loving sembreak

I love sleeping. Who doesn't?
I'm gonna make this sembreak as stress-free as possible.
Katayan na naman for sure once school starts.
Jam-packed scheds this sembreak. Haha kala mo naman VIP eh noh? No no no. I'm with my family 24/7. Mama wants me to be with her all the time, and to think she herself is very busy with her social life. Wala lang, namiss lang ako. Hahaha and to think us two will be bonding for four days next week. Just the two of us. Suweeeet :) Ate Mae din, she's always bringing me with her. Always the extra. It's all good though. I don't feel out of place naman with her and Kuya. Sanay na.

I bought plenty of TV series a few weeks ago, hoping that watching these DVDs would keep me occupied this sembreak. But no, I haven't even finished even one whole series. Almost done with the first season of House. I love it. But I love Grey's Anatomy more. Derek Shep is on the top of my list, and til now, he's my sorta inspiration to want to be a scrub nurse. And I will be an OR nurse. I just have to be one. What's interesting is that when I watch House or Grey's, I feel like somehow, I'm applying what I learn in school. Especially when it comes to the meds they use. They're quite fond of epi, eh? Haha.

Even if I've got a jam-packed sched, I feel empty. Blah. Hate this feeling.

Anyway, I will make this a fun sembreak. No wallowing. No crying. All smiles. Ugh Trish. Come home na. Wala kong partner-in-crime. I'm around so many people, yet I feel so alone. O diba, andrama. Blah.

What a Saturday

Haha Medical Mission yesterday. I only had like an hour of sleep, when I got up promptly at 2. Oana picked me up here at home at around 2.30, and we arrived in UST at 3 am. Prompt tlaga. We were the first RLE group to be complete. Cos we all thought that we would all be leaving at 3. But no. We left almost 5 na. Pasaway kasi ibang groups eh. Yan tuloy, lahat late nakauwi.

Fun fun fun. It was exhausting, yeah. But it was so fulfilling. Mainly because I was able to help the people of Ariendo, Nueva Ecija. And pwede ba, feel na feel ko namang nurse ako. Haha nagrereseta pa ng gamot sa mukukulit. But no, Paracetamol lang pinamimigay ko.

Literal, no sleep for 24 hours. I slept this morning mga 3 am na. Had to wake up early pa to finish my papers for the documentation, which is due tomorrow. Didn't let my groupmates down naman, nasubmit ko na lahat. At least.

Uploaded pics sa multiply. Yun nalang. After tomorrow, bakasyon na tlaga. :) Yey!!

Friday the 13th

I'm officially on vacation! Hahahahaha! Yeah yeah, not that official since I'm supposed to be in UST promptly at 3am tomorrow. Hahaha. So what? Sembreak na!!!

Okay, the whole blog layout? I got it from blogskins, cos I found the color cute. Not knowing that the whole theme of the layout was tada broken hearts. Hahaha Sorry sorry sorry. Sobrang coincidence lang. At least I'm honest enough to sa I'm mending a broken heart diba. O diba, it's my first time to formally say to the entire world that indeed my heart's broken. But it's okay, I'm trying to fix this very broken heart of mine. Hahahaha :)

So. Peds and Lit were my last 2 exams for the semester. And can I just say, I expected Peds to be a bit easier than all my other majors, but I guess, since I wasn't able to study that much last night (fell asleep while studying actually), I deserve it. Lit was just painful. Hahaha. It was harder than Pharma. And Pharma's just plain mean ha. I almost cried while TRYING to answer my Lit exam. Everyone found the exam hard. I couldn't even answer it. Haaaay. I just want to pass. Crap. Last summer, I told myself that my goal this semester is to make it to the Dean's List. But now, my goal is simply to pass all my subjects. So mediocre of me, I know, but it's just so hard. I want to graduate ASAP.

On a lighter note, I had fun at Bangs' this afternoon. We watched the High School Musical, and though I've seen it a dozen of times already, (Ciara's addicted to it), I still love watching it. Zac Efron reminds me of Andy Roddick. Haha. Oh please. Andy is like 100x hotter than Zac, but Zac is just so cute.

Lovin life :)

Last last last

I'm not supposed to be blogging right now, but I'm just so so so happy cos it's my last day tomorrow!! Okay, disregard the fact that on Saturday, I have to be in UST before 3am for our Medical Mission on that same day, and that I'll be home all day on Sunday, finishing the documentation for our Community Health Nursing, which is due on Monday. So what?! At least I don't have tests to worry about.

I've been pretty emotional these past couple of weeks. Don't want to talk about it though.

The UST Growling Tigers proved to everyone that fairy tales do come true. Proud to be Thomasian. It was enough that we made it to the Final Four. But the finals? Thank you so much Lord. :) I know everyone, including me, expected Ateneo to win the Men's Baskteball title in the UAAP. But I guess, it's the Tigers' time to shine. Kudos to the whole team, for proving everyone wrong. Thanks to Ma'am Ruth of the FEU Athletics Head, she's a good friend of Kuya RJ, cos if it weren't for her, Chi and I wouldn't have the best seats in the Araneta. Lucky lucky lucky. Go uste!!!

Peds and Lit nalang... Kaya pa :)

Just my Luck

Can anyone say Lucky??!! I haven't been lucky for the past couple of months, so with luck being on my side, I'm sure not wasting mytime. Andy, also, has been on a lucky streak himself. Although he didn't exactly win the US Open, he is now (again) America's Number 1 player. A couple of months ago, he was dethroned by his good friend, James Blake. But it's nice to know that Andy's back!!

Wanna know how lucky I am? We were originally scheduled to have our defense (for CHN) last Monday morning. My group wasn't finished with our report yet, so imagine how happy I was when, while I was watching Andy's match live @ 5.40 am, my classmate texts me and tells me that our CI gave us the day off cos she was sick. I was extremely happy. Who wouldn't be happy??! I still left the house to meet up with my RLEmates and we finished our report. Oana and I were the first reporters (cos we reported on the Population of the Brgy lang), so we reported yesterday. Our RLE sched is 12-5. We started around 1.30 pm already cos we couldn't get a room in the building. Our CI had to leave promptly at 3pm yesterday cos she had a meeting daw, and she announced that we would be having our Wednesday off again. And that's why I'm blogging right now. I watched the Devil wears Prada last night, with Oana, and I'm so inggit with Anne Hathaway. Change of career plans. I don't want to be a nurse na. I'm a bag and shoe person, so while watching the movie, I was more determined to one day have all the bags and shoes that Andrea (anne's character) wore, after her transformation. Ha. As if. Hahaha :)

I'ma finish making my Pharma project pa. Even if I have tons of work to do, I don't care, cos I'm happy!

Go uste!! 5-peat! And My Andy!!

Proud to be Thomasian! Wow, I've finally accepted the fact that I really am a Thomasian. Wah. Haha 5-peat! I wasn't able to watch the cheering competition live in Araneta, though Ate and Kuya offered tickets, because of my still unfinished report in Community Nrsg. The Salinggawi Dance Troupe sure made every Thomasian proud. They rocked. I was waiting for the helicopter routine though, and it didn't come. But oh well, they did a fab performance.

Since last week I haven't had a pseudostress-free weekend. What made yesterday a super stressing day was the fact that we were originally scheduled to have CPR return demo in the afternoon, and while I was still in dreamland, Oana called me (around 8.50am) and told me that we'd be having the CPR return demo @ 9.30 am. Hello. Thanks for such short notice. I went home pa naman late the night before because Ma, Ate, Kuya and I went to the spa (Palm Garden) after having dinner at Red Crab. Yeah I know we were all supposed to be sleeping over at Edsa Shang, but Chi brought 5 of her friends there, so the whole suite was cramped, meaning GO HOME EVERYONE. So there. We had our CPR Return demo (that would make us licensed to provide CPR when the need arises), yesterday (I hope I passed), and I stayed in school til almost 5 because of the report we'd be having in CHN. Crap talaga. We had to tabulate data regarding population distribution, health problems, and a lot of other stuff on a whole barangay. So now ko lang narealize na super jump ng jump thoughts ko ah. Shucks. Schizo na ata ako.

I didn't go back na to Edsa Shang last night. Only Papa and I stayed at home. I miss my bed noh. Sorry kung KJ. haha

And my Andy was just the best. He beat the hell out of Youzhny, and now he's going against Roger later for the finals. I'm super duper proud of Andy. I sure hope he wins! Good luck Sweetie!!! :)

I have to finish pa my report. Til later!

Thanks to Jimmy

Andy's finally found his mojo.
Andy is the new Andre?

For the first time in a long time, Andy beat Lleyton Hewitt. The two have had a somewhat Andre-Pete rivalry since what, year 2000? Or was it 2001? Whatev. Andy's in the best shape ever. And I sure hope he wins the US Open this year. He beat Lleyton in 3 straight sets, which I unfortunately wasn't able to watch, winning him a seat in the Semis, against Youzhny (the guy who unfortunately, beat Rafa). Good luck Andy! Jimmy Connors being Andy's coach sure did wonders :)

On the flip side, I am depressed. Or I was for about an hour and a half. I flunked my favorite subject, Med-Surg (during prelims) by 1 point, and Pharma (my least favorite), by a lot. Depressing. But life goes on. And now that I've only got 1 grading period left, I'm going to work my a$$ off. I swear I would. Grabe. I just want to pass Pharma. Yun lang, masaya nako.

I brought my car to school today (against my wishes), when just my luck, I got caught in traffic for 2 and a half hours. O diba, so fun. I got home around 8. It was raining pretty hard, and traffic was just terrible along España and Quezon Ave. Crap talaga. Popsy (Oana's dad) was such a darling. He suggested that Oana ride with me, since it was so dark na, and they both knew I was scared of driving in the dark, especially since my car windows are tinted black tlaga. So they waited for me near Sheila's house (Sheila rode with me), and Oana rode with me all the way to my place. Convoy ba. Thanks thanks thanks Bru!! Thanks Popsy!

Grabe. Cramped sched, and yet I'm still blogging. I just want to tell the whole world (if you guys don't know it yet) about Andy's feat :) So there. How busy is dindin? And the list ain't complete yet.

• Graded Recitation on 3 chapters in Pharmacology.
• Quiz on GI and GU in Pediatrics tomorrow.
• Lit presentation tomorrow.
• Chi's bday on Sunday so we'll be staying in Edsa Shang from tomorrow til Sunday.
• CPR return demo on Saturday.
• Tabulation and research for CO presentation on Monday
• Defense for CHN (rle) on Monday.
• Socio project for the semester
• Lord of the Flies reading material (for Lit)
• Industrial Nursing (IN) on Sept 19
• Docu for IN
• Community Organizing (Implementation) in Nueva Ecija on Sept 30

I'll update the list around next week. Good luck to me.

007

If only I had the license to kill someone. Grrr. I'm a wholesome person. But really, if only I could (and God won't punish me for it), I'd strangle nalang the person.

I thought my hellish week was over. But no, hell month has just begun. Yesterday was the last day of my prelim exams. Gawd. 60% of the junior batch failed Pharma. I swear, it was sooo hard. Even my prof apologized to us because she found the exam difficult, as well. She didn't make the test, btw. Okay, so here's where my story starts. So last Sunday, I had my night call duty right? I thought it would be fun. At first, it was fun. It was the perfect time to study for my MS long exam which we had the following day. We were just chilling in the Students' room, then because the staff turned off the a/c in the room, we were forced to move to the workroom, where 2 of the staff nurses were. So anyway, I got really sleepy around 11pm, and because based on my classmates' stories on their nightcall, the nurses gave them mattresses for them to sleep on, I made my presence felt by lying down on the couch. Papansin ba. So that the nurses would ask us to get the mattresses from wherever. But nooooo. It never happened. Insensitive? Probably. Well, I couldn't blame them now, cos what happened changed my life forever. Haha drama nun ah. Anyway, at around 12 midnight, while I was having my nap, my classmates woke me up cos there was an emergency surgery. And I was supposed to scrub in. So I get up, help the scrub nurse prepare stuff and wait for the patient to arrive. Scrubbed in at around 1.30am, and surgery began at 2.21am. And ended at 4.30am. So I literally had no sleep. I was sleepy the entire time. While the surgeon was suturing, I was preparing the needle and suture. While doing that, I accidentally pricked my finger. Which alarmed me. I was terrified. To the point that I perspired like crazy. I mean, what if the patient has hepa? Fudge diba?! So I told my scrub nurse, and he told me to scrub out and clean my finger. So I went to the scrub room, removed my right glove, and thank God. No sign of blood, which means I didn't prick my finger. Just the glove. Grabe. Sobrang thank you Lord. After that, I just sat in one of the stools at the side of the OR suite, and after the surgery, I told my scrub nurse I'd be cleaning the instruments nalang (which I DIDN'T WANT TO DO, because ANDAMI nun. And sobra sleepy nako), but he told me to just get a basin and he'd take care of the whole mess, cos I need sleep daw because of my exams the next day. How sweet diba. Sayang di ko type eh. Haha.

--I know it's coincidental, but isn't it cool that my first and last cases are both emergency cases? Wala lang. As if naman I could brag about the cases where I scrubbed in, eh 3 lang yun. Pathetic eh noh. Haha Summer babawi ako. --

When I took the exams in MS, I was the first who passed my paper, basically because I didn't review my answers anymore, since I was already falling asleep. Hello?! Try not sleeping for an entire night. Annoying. So I went straight home after that, and tried to catch some zzz's, which I got at 5pm pa. Maryosep. In the middle of my beautiful sleep, Oana and Sheila texted me,telling me to meet them and the rest of the RLE at 7am the following day. We didn't have classes kasi on Tuesday, because Prelims were on Wed-Fri. It's the college's tradition that we have one day free before the prelims. Hello? Walang tulog tapos pupunta sa school? Because of the effing case presentation our CI gave us. She assigned that on Monday, due Friday same week. Wow. Thanks for the consideration. Not only that, she expected us to submit individual Patient Care Records on one of the surgeries where we scrubbed in. I submitted my patient care record, aka case study kong bulok, yesterday,and she returned it. DI DAW TAMA FORMAT. Gosh. Malay ko bang case study. She told us that it was supposed to be Nursing Care Analysis. Eh in our previous shift, that was the PCR. And now she tells us she wants a friggin Case Study?! Graaaaabe mehn. Now ko lang ginagawa and I swear to God, it's so hard. Naiiyak nako. Pano, my case ain't like your typical case. Its Anatomy and Pathophsyio is so hard to explain because Abdominal Trauma eh. Andaming organs affected, goodness gracious. Good luck to me.

AND. My stint in the OR is over (so sad, promise,major bawi in the OR on summer. 3 cases palang ako. crap), and now we'll be having our Community Health Nursing. Crap. Sobra dami gagawin. Paperwork, whateverwork, doesn't work for me. I shouldn't be nega. I promised myself I'd look at the brighter things in life. This time I'd be more optimistic. God won't give me this much work if He knew I couldn't do it. I could manage all the stress that I'm having. Thank you Lord.

My body is now used to being asleep for only 4-6 hours. Kanina, I woke up around 10, when I slept at 4 ha. At least I don't feel groggy because of sleep-deprivation. I'm now used to it e.

Thank you Sam Milby, for not letting me down. You were so gwapo, cute, hot, adorable in the movie, that for 2 hours or so, I forgot about my problems in school. I am, again, in love with him. Now I know that there are 2 reasons why God hasn't made me meet my perfect match yet. He's either a) Sam Milby, or b) Andy roddick :) I think it's letter B though. hahahaha


Still lovin' life despite all the difficulty. I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me :)

Confusing my feelings with the truth

Okay, so the title doesn't have anything to do with this journal entry. It just so happened that Gabriella (the character from High School Musical, which I so love thanks to Zac Efron) just sang When There Was Me and You. I love that song.
ANYWAY.
Now I know why 3rd year's tough. I'm feeling the pressure. MS, which I love, is a traitor. The long quiz that Asst Dean gave us was just so hard. I mean at first it didn't seem hard because I studied hard for that quiz, but then all the choices seemed like they were all the right answers. This is where CHOOSE THE BEST ANSWER fits. I was so crestfallen when we were having the feedback for the Fluid and Electrolyte quiz. I was never really good at Fluid and Electrolytes anyway. Bawi next quiz.

DUTY.I love RLE. But man, I hate the sched. Instead of 18 mtgs in the OR, we only have like at most 12 because of class suspensions, holidays. For the first time in my life, I want to have duty. I'm willing to go to the OR and go home late because of a surgery that takes 5 hours to finish. But no. We were deprived of the 18 meetings. Well, no one's to blame for this. Malas lang talaga. Blah. I just keep praying that nothing bad or terrible will happen to me that will make me not want to work in the OR in the future. I love it. I love surgery. Thanks to Grey's Anatomy.

School's tough right? I keep saying that. What's tougher is my sched this week. Although we won't be having classes on Monday thanks to Ninoy Aquino's heroism, I'll be in school straight from Tuesday-Monday the following week. I'm going to be in school even on Saturday and Sunday. 'Cause on Sunday, I'll be having my overnight duty :) Nothing to rave about, since owells. Won't go deep into that. I CAN DO THIS. Right? Right. Sacrifice. I have to go through all this. GOAL? Andy Roddick.

Speaking of, Andy is on a roll. He's into the semis of the Cincys. I'm just so proud of him. So what if he's ranked 12th nalang in the world? Well I know it's a big deal that from being number 5, he's now 12th best in the world, it's just that he's raised his game (ooh got that from his site, which I check everyday). He just beat Andy Murray, the same guy who beat him in Wimbledon. That guy's just so arrogant. Not to be mean or anything, but I'm glad Andy Roddick crushed him. I love Andy Roddick to bits. Haaaay. His game has improved so well, that he's playing the same way he did back in 2003, when he won the US Open. And don't believe the rumors that he's dating Maria Sharapova. That's rubbish. He loves going out, but he doesn't have a girlfriend. Not in 5 years. Haha.

I have to finish my pref cards. I hope that we'd be loaded with surgeries come Tuesday. No duty on Wednesday cos we have a seminar on CPR by Dra. Yamamoto. O diba, no duty na naman. I'M HATING IT. Can't we cancel duty when we're having Community Nursing instead? Blah. Hell week next week. Ugh. That's why I slept the whole day today. I officially have SLEEP BULIMIA. I read in this journal that Sleep Bulimia is being sleep-deprived the entire week and sleeping all day on weekends. Hello? I'm the classic example. Well, you can't blame me. I doubt that I'm the only one in my college with Sleep Bulimia. Crap, Nursing in UST is so damn hard. It's okay though, cos it'll all pay off when I'm an RN na. That's why I fully support my college in its quest for TRUTH, JUSTICE AND INTEGRITY for the Nursing Profession. Speaking of, what Prof Villarama and the entire faculty of the UST College of Nursing did just last Thursday & Friday was on the newspaper. Not just in the newspaper. We were on the banner headline. I'm so proud to be a Thomasian Nurse. Okay, so they teach us that we're above other nursing schools, which is a bad thing, but I now love my college. I love Nursing. Even if Pharmacology doesn't love me back.

I have to say that I have conquered another big fear of mine. Due to the Oath-taking that, thank God was postponed, Prof Villarama moved our class from 10.30 yesterday to 4-5.30pm. I had the option of not attending the class, but I just couldn't, because I was lucky as it is to be having Ma'am Villarama as my Peds prof. I couldn't miss her lectures because she's one of the few teachers I've ever had in my entire life who's that good. Hassle because I brought my car, eh I have a hard time driving in the dark because of the really dark tint in my car windows. I left school around 6 na. But I was able to go home safely naman. Thank God.

Good luck to me this week. After hell week, Prelims week naman. More good luck hahaha

Brain saturation

My brain is oversaturated. School is definitely killing me. I can't believe that now I'm always looking forward to duty just cos lecture's killing me. I wasn't able to sleep well last Wed and Thurs because of Pharma and Peds. Pwet. And you'd think it's over after that right? NOOOOO. Plus 3 more quizzes next week. MS, Pharma and Peds. Pharma is, up to now, still my worst subject. I don't know why. I give it my all naman. I study hard. I memorize everything I can memorize. WALANG NANGYAYARI MEHN. Augh. I just want this sem to be over. One thing's keeping me in good spirits, though. Duty in the OR. No other reason except that I'm enjoying the experience and I really want to work in the OR. Seriously.

I have to do pa biblio for Monday's duty. I wish I scrub in. And I wish for a little something something pa with that hahaha :)

On Tuesday, we'll be having a prayer rally in front of the PRC because of the leakage in the nursing licensure exams last june. I'll be joining the rally in the morning, then duty in the afternoon. I couldn't imagine myself as an activist, but I'm going to be there, not because we're required (Seniors lang required, well, Juniors sorta pushed to go), but because I want to fight for this cause. Unfair eh. And I don't want what happened this year to happen to me come June 2008. That'll be crazy. I want to pass the boards, and I pray to God I do. I want to graduate na and work. Ay. 3 more semesters to go.

I can't believe I'm already a Junior. I couldn't stop saying this. It seems as though yesterday I was still roaming the corridors of St. Paul Pasig with Trish and all my friends back there. Oh crap I miss high school. I miss St. Paul Pasig. I miss my classmates. My friends. Even the teachers (some) ha. The buildings. The ambiance. Especially the fact that it was an exclusive school for girls. Boys are crazy, mas fun pag all-girls. Haha. Waah. High school classmates: BAKIT WALA PARIN TAYONG YEARBOOK?? Many of us will be graduating na next year (DLSU and CSB peeps), and yet it seems as though mauuna pa mga yearbooks natin from college maprint.. Ay sana maprint and marelease na yun. Badtrip naman talaga o.. I'm not blaming the yearbook staff because I know Freshman year (college) palang, done na yun eh. What happened? Printing daw eh. GRR. Hay nakonakonako.

Reality check: Dami pa gagawin. Plus, I need to rest. Yes. I love andy roddick. He's injured. I hope he'll be okay by the start of the US open. It'll be a shame if he doesn't make it to the finals. I hope Andy wins this time. Gets the title, I mean. He'll be 24 on the 30th. Happy birthday Andy! (In advance) Haha as if!!!

loving rle

Even if OR's making us crazy (in a good way naman), I have to say, we're all loving the OR experience. Abbie, Oana, Arvin and I were the only ones without cases this afternoon. We weren't at all chillax. We were anticipating emergency cases, too bad 1 case was cancelled, sorry Oana and Abbie. We had fun in the Supply Room though,fixing medical stuff. It made me pretty dizzy by the end of the 'chore', which by the way didn't seem like a chore at all, because of the small font in the meds and the very overwhelming amount of supplies. It was tough sorting them out just cos everything looked the same. Haha.

I was the first person in our group who scrubbed, though.It was an emergency case, and I was the most unlikely person to scrub cos I was the TL, TL=no cases. But for some reason, our CI asked me to scrub ASAP. It was really cool not cos I was the first one who did it, but because I really felt like it was real. I mean it was real, it's just that I've always only seen that kind of action on TV (Grey's Anatomy). Since I'm a big Grey's fan, it's obvious that I really want to be working in the OR. That's where the real action is, although I'm not the surgeon, it's fun, I tell you. Hassle lang yung cleaning all the instruments after the surgery.

NO school tomorrow, but I have to go to USTH tomorrow to get data for my patient last week. Blah. You could only get data every Tuesday eh. Hassle noh? Haha.

*The only pic where Oana and I were both wearing white was taken back when we were still having our RLE at the Female Surgery Ward. Taken weeks ago :)

Love is Andy

I am in love with Andy Roddick.


ON SNL


ANDY ON THE WEAKEST LINK


Andy's Lexus Commercial


US Open series commercial

UST's on a roll!

UST's on a winning streak! Wow. First FEU, now UE? And to think the line-up last year is pretty much what we have this year, except for 3 rookies. I think it's the coach. Good thing the school finally changed the coach. I hope we make it to the Final Four, or maybe even win the championship? Haha

---Hodge-podge of thoughts---

• Julian (of My Girl) was here in Manila, and he is HOT.
• It's Monday again tomorrow. I hope we don't have classes tomorrow.
• I want to eat ice cream
• I could sleep all day. Swear I could.
• I want to graduate already.
• Andy's only ranked 11th. From 5th. Tsktsk.
• It's Paopao's 4th birthday on July 29th, I miss him
• I super duper miss Trisha.
• I want to study for my Pharma quizzes, but I'm too lazy.
• American Dreamz, the movie, isn't all that. It sucked, by the way.
• Looking forward to watching Jennifer Aniston's The Break-up. Haha
• I want to leave the PI. ASAP
• I'm hungry. Again.
• Life's been treating me good, but I'm still not content. Tsktsk.
• I desperately need a massage.

Sleep all day

Monthly exams are over!! I'm so glad the week finally ended! Pharma sucked. I want to love that subject, but somehow I just can't. I love Peds and MS, but I could never ever learn to love Pharma. It's like Chemistry all over again, plus I hate memorizing things that sound alike. I mean all these meds sound alike. When will I ever learn?!?!? For the first time in my life, I took a test I couldn't answer. It has to do with the fact that while we were taking the test, our Pharma prof told us that we'd be having our quizzes (3 effing quizzes) later at 4pm. We were supposed to be out by 12pm. Everyone made plans for the afternoon/evening. I was planning on sleeping the entire afternoon cos I didn't sleep much the night before cos of that subject. Because I was fuming mad, I almost broke my pencil, but thank God I didn't. I kept praying to God that our prof would cancel our quiz for whatever reason she could have. I just want her to postpone the quiz and have it next week. God is good. An hour later, she told us that the quiz is now moved to next week. I was soo happy that I was able to answer at least 20 questions confidently. I think. At least I think I answered them correctly.
ANYWAY.
After that, I literally pigged out. I had lunch at Mister Kabab with Oana, Giselle, Hannah, Ken and Ade. I ate Keema and 2 cups of rice. Baboy. Haha. I've been wanting to eat there since last summer, cos the last time we ate there was what? January 31st? Or basta end of January..

This is the last of my easy easy days. I mean, school's tougher this time around. Everyone's been saying 3rd year's the toughest, and now I know why. And it's only beginning. Crap, I can't wait till I graduate.

Why am I not losing weight?! I work out at least once a week. I'm low on carbs. I do sit-ups every other day. Pero no, nothing's changed! My face is still big, my arms are still flabby, my tummy's still big! Dang. Haha. Good thing I don't have a boyfriend. At least di na kelangan magpaganda.

Starting Monday, I'll be in the OR na. I'm both anxious-excited and anxious-nervous at the same time. Excited cos ever since I got hooked on Grey's Anatomy, I've been wanting to be a scrub nurse already. Or basta an OR nurse. Nervous cos people from RLE 2 (who just finished their shift at the OR-Pay, that's where we'll stay den) told us that sobra toxic daw and super demanding. Well. Just when we thought we're over the terror and toxic CI. Good luck to us!

It'll take forever for me to update again. Ugh. School. Lovin it and hatin it both at the same time :)

bleh

Thank God it's Friday! Happy day today, because I was able to conquer my fear: driving and parking alone. Not that I wasn't able to do both yesterday, but today, I did both with ease. And I parked my car perfectly, if I do say so myself :) Giselle can attest to that, we went home together eh, :)

So many things to do, so little time. I'm looking forward to doing everything I'm supposed to do. I'm loving school for many reasons, one's pretty shallow (and immature hehehe) and the other reasons? Plent eh, one is that I now love to learn new stuff ahahhaha. On Mondays-Wednesdays, time seems to go slowly, while on the last 2 days of the school week, time goes by soooo fast. Why? RLE Duty on M-W? Kapagod super duper. But know what, it's so fulfilling. Knowing that at the end of the day, you helped others, touched your patient & her family's life, wow, I can't explain the feeling. Last Tuesday & Wed, I was able to do things I never in my wildest dreams thought I could do. I've been changing bed sheets of patients since last year, no biggie. Change their dressing gowns? No sweat. But doing both on a post-op patient who just vomited? Yep, I did both. And can I just say, eew. Haha. That was Tuesday. I wasn't prepared for what happened to me on Wed though. Just as I was saying goodbye to my patient, she asked me if I could tell the staff nurse to change her diaper. I said, "Ako nalang po, Ma'am," You think I did it? Of course I changed her nappies! Grabe. Haha. I felt good afterwards cos she kept thanking me. Because of these past experiences, I've realized that this really is what God wants me to do. I'm meant to be a nurse. Gawd. Even I couldn't believe it at first. I was reading 2 palanca letters from my Mama way back in High School. In both letters, she kept telling me to be more sensitive and more caring. Uh, hello? Now all I do is care for others. And know what? I feel good about it. I love caring about others. Being single and all, what I would want to do when I find the right guy is give him thrice the care I'm giving my patients. Grabe. Pampered ka na nun, Andy Roddick haha.

Been watching Andy vids (yes i know, obsessed). He's soooo adorable. In this vid, he was on the Weakest Link. Medyo boplox, but, so cute. Haha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dEWe7Z-moig

This one naman, commercial for American Express.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9c_g2Fo5JZc

Hope guides me

What the heck is with my title?! Too mushy. Couldn't think of anything appropriate for me right now, except for that. Hope does guide me, in everything I do. Read the left side of this page, and read the quote from A Knight's Tale, that's where I got the quote. Back to Hope guides me. It guides me in basically everything: school, life, love life (if I have one, but hell, I dont hehe).

School's been rough lately. I'm only into my 3rd week of school come Monday, and I am so stressed with everything. Duty and lecture. I like lecture now better than duty, because I hate it when I perspire too much (except of course when I'm sweating like crazy in the gym, that's more like it), but being in my patient's bedside, looking as if I've just had a strenous work-out cos I'm sweating like crazy? Too embarrassing. But I'm loving it. Though I hate to admit it, I really am loving it. Embracing all the stress and work school's throwing me. At least I get to think about really important things, you know.

Which makes me wonder, how come it seems as though I never really got to learn much from 2nd year? I'm already in my Junior year in college, and I feel as though I haven't learned much. In 2 years I'll be graduating already, hello, I'm in the second half of my college life, yet swear, it seems as though I don't know anything!! Oh well. I have this year to be a loser and keep my nose on books and school work.

Trish, I miss you like crazy! The only reason I'm online right now is cos of you, but you're already sleeping!! Ay badtrip haha :) I'm going to be spending the weekend doing schoolwork so I get to go to the gym on Monday (I hope I get up early..Haha!)

More updates on my boring, loser-ish life soon.

Finally, home!

After 3 short weeks of being in the US, I'm finally home. I loved it there. It was my first time on the West Coast, Cali in particular, and I had so much fun. I loved that I finally got a taste of what Disneyland's like, and what my life would be when I'm already there. I'm definitely gonna be lonely, but hell, my parents are always gonna be there for me. Thanks Ma and Pa!

What really made our stay in the US fun?

1. Shopping. Oh, I love to shop. The only con to shopping, is when you go to designer shops and you can't buy anything from there. I mean I could if I wanted to, but being my usual practical self, even though I want something that bad, just by looking at the price tag, I just ignore the urge to buy that thing.

2. My favorite TV Series. Honestly, I am obsessed with Grey's Anatomy and Gilmore Girls. I really am. Also The OC. So you could just imagine what my life was for the past 3 weeks. From the moment I stepped on American soil, I so wanted to go to my Aunt's condo stat so I could watch AI and GG. Grabe. And I am not that happy with us being home this early (I figured, we could go back home on May 16th) because last Tuesday was the season finale of Gilmore Girls, and Grey's Anatomy's season finale would be on the 14th and 15th. Arrrgh. It would take us how many months pa to be able to get DVDs of both series (current season ha). Anyway, other than that, I'm glad to be home. More than happy to be home!

Can I just say, especially to my friends (who I haven't seen for a very long time), for you guys not to rub it in my face, that I am really tan right now (in a not-so-good way), and I gained a couple of lbs. I mean, what do you expect, right? I went to America. I enjoyed the food. Why did I get this dark? Seaworld's the culprit, along with Disneyland & California Adventure. Lines so long at noon? Watching the Shamu at 2 in the afternoon? Oh man, thanks to the theme parks my sister loved, I am this dark. Especially my nose. Oh don't get me started!

I'm so happy I still have at most 1 more month left of summer vacation! Trisha's finally in Manila! I have one more month left to lose all the flabs I got (and the lbs too), one more month to enjoy myself (and not think of school!!!!

A Blessed Holy Week

I'll be on blog-leave starting next week. Not like people visit my blog or whatever, but I just want to tell the entire world that. Haha. I'm leaving for the US on Tuesday, and I'm quite excited about it. I think I'm really going to love this summer break. Trisha's coming home, finally wil be making time for work-out, my parents will be giving me something new, will finally be able to fix my room, and the list goes on.. Thank God I get to enjoy my break, no required subjects to take during summer. That's the only thing I love about UST.

I think summer's gonna be great in preparation for what's in store for me this coming school year. I do dread this school year 'cause according to my friends' friends from the higher batches, junior year's the toughest because of the subjects and the professors. Whatever, I'm just going to be praying for the best. God is good. He'll help me get through everything.

In the meantime, I will be enjoying my vacation. With TV series I'm definitely hooked to. I'm obsessed with Grey's Anatomy. I have always loved Patrick Dempsey. Especially in Sweet Home Alabama. Well, because of the TV show, I now really know that being a nurse is what I want to be. I don't care if people think that being a nurse is low, because hell, they don't know what we go through in college. What's important is I know what I want. And I know this is what I really want to be doing for the rest of my life. Because of Grey's Anatomy, I'm looking forward to this school year. Last year, I was dreading Med-Surg. But now, I can do anything. Haha. Seriously. And I want to be a scrub nurse. Or maybe a nurse in the Surgical ward. I don't know. I'm only an incoming junior. I have other options. Man, I am so happy. God is so good. I know a few days ago, I was still ranting about not studying in Ateneo when I could've gone there (and because I want to study there), but Man, I am on the right track. Being a nurse won't only mean that I'll have a better life, but wow, this is really what I want. I want to help others, I want to help save lives. Wow. Big words from a small person.

Happy Easter!
Happy summer you guys!

loving summer

It's summer and I'm loving every minute of it! I'm kind of nocturnal, so well, I'm still up at this ungodly hour,chatting with my uncle, and reading the online journal of his patient. Sobrang kawawa. I don't think I'm ready to see my patients dying. I can't be a nurse in the Oncology dept. It's just too tragic for me. Visit Lisa's site and you will be so inspired by her story. She has breast cancer (stage 4) at just 32 years of age, has 2 cute very young kids, and has so much faith in the Lord. She's fighting her way through cancer, but I am guessing, she'd be lucky just to make it through the year. Watch her video, if you're interested, sobrang nakakaiyak.

Got my grades the other day, and I can say I did pretty well.. I'm proud of myself because I did my best. I didn't make it to the Dean's List, but what the heck? I'm not in it for the honors, I just want to learn and enjoy my college life. As my uncle tells me, "Minsan ka lang maging college," I'm doing just that. Enjoying life.

Summer na!

I think it's gonna be a very happy summer for me.. *Keeping my fingers crossed*

Trisha's coming home and I'm so happy! Just waiting for my grades, then afterwards I could chill na. I should've gone to UST this afternoon. Now I'm blaming myself for not being able to get my grades and the 2nd sem Tuition Assessment. Next week, if I don't get lazy, swear I'm going to get it na.

Looking back on the past semester and the past year, I think I did pretty good. I learned a lot of things: I enjoyed studying, was exposed to the hospital, witnessed the miracle of life: giving birth, (yes first hand, even took out the placenta of the woman), was more learning-conscious rather than grade-conscious, drove myself to school on "sipag days", learned how to get back from a big big fall, learned to trust God even more, built wonderful friendships, loved my family even more.. I learned a lot. And looking back, I'm pretty satisfied with everything I did. Thank you Lord, for a very wonderful year. I feel so blessed. You truly are amazing and wondrous, Thank you God. For keeping my family safe. For making everything work out for me, even if things seem like they're going nowhere. Thank You for showing me that indeed, everything has its own reason and purpose. I love You. :)

Summer plans:
1. Go to the gym
2. Finish my reading list
3. Lose 5-20 lbs (I know, so impossible!)
4. Fix my room
5. Give away old clothes (yet again)
6. Watch all the dvds I recently purchased, including the Gilmore Girls Season 5 I got last December
7. Play basketball in the village court
8. Go to the beach at least once
9. Enjoy my US trip and control my appetite
10. Chill, Relax, Have fun

Huling Hirit!

One more day and only two more tests to go and I'm done for the year! I can't wait for summer!
I've had a hell of a month. I want to say that I'm proud of myself, but I have yet to wait for my grades before I can really say that. And besides, I can't say that right now because I'm so lazy to study. OB nalang & Philo ang tests bukas. I can't believe that this is the last stretch of my 2nd year in college already! It seems like only yesterday when I was still a lost, don't-give-a-care-in-the world girl, a high schooler in St. Paul Pasig. Wow. In 2 years, I'd be graduating and taking the boards na. As much as I am excited to be working and going to the US to work and migrate, I have to say that I'm not yet looking forward to that. I'm still young. Time flies by so fast.

Enough of that crap. Have to study. Summer na!! :)

What's going on?

I woke up this morning, wanting to go back to sleep (as usual). My sister was knocking on my door and when I checked the time, it was 3 minutes before my usual Friday morning waking time. I asked her why she was still here, and she said she doesn't have classes. So I turned on my cellphone and received messages from Gino and my classmates telling me we don't have classes today. Good thing because I'm not looking forward to going to school today. I only have one class on Fridays so it's so hassle to wake up early. Wondering why classes were suspended, I wore my glasses and turned on the television (nax, very detailed ha). Turns out there was a rumored coup attempt and the President is so paranoid, and she should be, because she has negative ratings and many Filipinos just want her out of office. Gawd. Because of this, I have this theory that we are not going anywhere (figuratively speaking).

We always want to be rich, yet we're too lazy to even get to where we want. We want peace, yet we hate so many people so much. Can't people just get along? I'm so proud to be Filipino, but when I tune in to CNN or whatever international newschannel I could find, I think twice. Reports on the Philippines always include Poverty and Bad, Corrupt Politics. Change isn't always good. Having 3 successful People Power Revolutions would say a lot about the Filipinos. And it's not good. It means that when things aren't going right, we want change right away. Hello? That's not how things go. Ano yun, ilang dapa ka lang, gusto mo na palitan legs mo kasi parang may problema ata, lagi ka nalang nadadapa! People would deny that they think this way, but think about it, ganyan ang Pilipino. Why don't you give her a chance kasi? I know politically, we all have different opinions, but this is how I perceive things kasi eh. Ever since PGMA was put in position, people have been criticizing her and saying bad stuff about her. People don't believe in her. Yet, have you checked the Business Section of your newspapers months ago? The Peso improved gradually, if you haven't noticed. Yes, a lot of people are still hungry, out in the streets. But is it the government's responsibility to keep everyone's stomachs full? Gawd no! The government helps the people by keeping them safe thus by having the soldiers and the policemen. The government helps the people by providing them with some of their basic needs, but not all! The government helps they by generating more jobs for the Filipinos to keep people off the streets and have families eat thrice a day! But is it the government's fault that the poor has an average of 4 kids per family? Is it the government's fault that the poor are too dang lazy? Hell no! Come on People, let's all help each other. Absolutely nothing good will come out of these rallies and coup attempts against the administration. How could we help each other? Be more responsible. And keep praying. Nothing would go wrong if you just pray and believe.

Bangon Pilipinas.

Kung Hei Fat Choi!

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone! New Year, new layout. After 10 years ehehe

January to March are the busiest months of my life. We only have 1 month for prelims and a month for finals. We'll be having our Prelims next week, and we're behind in most of our classes, except Peds and Ethics. Wahoo.. I am so looking forward to Summer. I need sleep. Even on weekends, I need to get up by 6. Imagine that. Except for today, when I woke up at 9, thank God.

About my New Year's resolutions, I'm happy and very proud to say, that I only cussed about 5 times the past week. From an everyday to a mere 5 times! Imagine that!! Hopefully I would've eradicated that cussing trait by end of February. Or next week perhaps :)

I need to have my bed changed. I bumped my head, for the nth time, while going back to bed after peeing. I was so bangag and the room was so dark that I didn't see the rails in the double decker bed. Arrgh. I'm now nursing a bump in my forehead. And it hurts.

A very long week ahead of me. I'm so used to it na. I really can't wait for summer.

PICTURES

me and jia 2 fridays ago

FAMILY

My family during Nanay and Tatay's 50th Wedding Anniversary

Me and Ate Joy

Montalla Girls reunite

I MISS PAOPAO :(

FRIENDS FROM SCHOOL

Me and Giselle during our GK thing

GK!

After a long day - GK on a sunday ha!

Me and Oana before watching Narnia

After English

new life

Happy new year! And since it's a new year for me, I also made resolutions - that I'm sure I won't be able to keep..

1. No to cramming! Stop procrastinating! - I'm the world's biggest procrastinator and I hate it. Every first week of the year, the semester, the school year, I always seem so enthusiastic in doing things on time. But as time goes by, and I get more toxic with duty and school work, I get less productive in terms of doing work on time, and am just so lazy in studying. I hate it.

2. Patience is a virtue of Pikachu - according to my sister, Ciara, 5 years ago. I am very very impatient. But I can say that with kids, I couldn't believe that I'm really patient. I was able to take care of Pao for almost 2 weeks, which is an achievement, since he had a number of tantrums while I was there. He had his most violent tantrums with only me and Ate in the apartment. Ate Mae is the most impatient person in the world. Which only means that I'm the only one who tried to appease Pao, which I did successfully. I always take care of Gogo as well. Gogo and Pao are the most active toddlers I know. They never seem to get tired. Very good, Din. But the question is, how come I couldn't be patient in dealing with people my own age? Mystery to me.

3. Have time for yourself - I don't have time for myself. Really.

4. Stop being such a primadonna. Mama tells me every time I get mad with my sisters that I'm such a primadonna. But since Chi's the prima, and Ciara's the donna, I am called the diva. Bad. I hate being labeled as such because I think I'm not a primadonna. Maybe at home lang, but still it's a bad thing..

I'm loving my life. Even with all the pressures, I seem to still be content with everything that's been going on. Even with all my problems in school, I still remain strong. God's been good to me and my family, and I'm so thankful, and I never forget to thank Him for all the blessings He continue to shower upon us. I am so blessed to have my dad, healthy again, cause flashback to a year ago: He had MI, and January 2005 was the longest month in my life. God is good. Thank you Lord :) Plus, my frenemies back in 1st year are now my good and trusted friends. I am really blessed. We finally put our differences and shallowness behind us. We started anew and that's what matters. The only sad thing about 2005 is Trisha leaving me and our friends.I miss her so much. Love you trish..