Mixed emotions day for me yesterday. I went to school at 8 so I could have breakfast with Oana before the enrollment supposedly at 10. By 9.30, we were already in line. At 12, the line didn't move AT ALL. The College secretary told us to have lunch then would be advised when enrollment will resume. Apparently, ust's server was down. Minutes later, a txt msg was sent to our Class President, telling us that we could go home and just come back the next day. Of course I was more than happy to leave, after all I had a lunch date with my family because it was Mommy Solly's birthday. On my way to Galleria, Matt (class prez) texted me and told me to be back by 2pm that afternoon for enrollment, or I could come back the next morning. So when I got to Mr. Choi's kitchen in Galleria, I quickly ate my food then went to Jesse Mendez to schedule my haircut for 5pm that day. I arrived in UST at 2.30 and found most of my blockmates still waiting outside the gate of the Seminarian gym. Surprise surprise, they didn't allow us to enter. I really wanted to punch the guard's face coz he was so damn insensitive. He was calling for the CFAD students to enter, when in fact, their college's enrollment was moved to October 29! Hello?! I'm not a violent person, but UST just went too far. When we got in, Rowell, my classmate last year, told us that we could only enlist for a PE Subject. I didn't get the PE sched I wanted, but that's okay. I tend to look on the brighter side nowadays, but moving on, after enlisting for PE, it's a good thing we didn't leave the place kaagad. After like 10 mins outside the gym, they told us that we could enroll na, which took about an hour, but that's okay. At least I don't have to go back to UST until Nov 7th.
After enrolling, I arrived in Galle at 5pm, just in time for my appointment. I had this radical change. Hello bangs. I feel weird having these short bangs. The stylist accidentally cut my bangs short when I just wanted a few strands of my hair cut. So now I look 5 years younger. Prepare to see the new Din.
So this is how I looked like right after enrollment.
Happy!
new hair - 5 inches shorter!
With Daddy. He doesn't want to smile! Gwapo pa naman!
With Tita Grace :)
Nina sent me this hyperlink on
The Interview With God. It was really touching. Here's the poem, from theinterviewwithgod.com
THE INTERVIEW WITH GODI dreamed I had an interview with God.
"So you would like to interview me?" God asked.
"If you have the time" I said.
God smiled. "My time is eternity. What questions do you have in mind for me?"
"What surprises you most about humankind?"
God answered...
"That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again."
"That they lose their health to make money...and then lose their money to restore their health."
"That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future."
"That they live as if they will never die, and die as though they had never lived."
God's hand took mine and we were silent for a while.
And then I asked...
"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want your children to learn?"
"To learn they cannot make anyone love them. All they can do is let themselves be loved."
"To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others."
"To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness."
"To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in those they love, and it can take many years to heal them."
"To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least."
"To learn that there are people who love them dearly, but simply have not yet learned how to express or show their feelings."
"To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently."
"To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves."
"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.
"Is there anything else you would like your children to know?"
God smiled and said, "Just know that I am here... always."
-author unknown
I was so touched with this poem that I cried upon reading it. For it to be touching, visit the link above. With the music and the beautiful pictures, with of course the poem, who wouldn't cry?!
I had a chance to share my own reflection with Trisha, coz I found her online an hour ago, right after I read the poem. Apparently, she also cried when she read the poem. Now I don't feel so horrible and I don't feel like I'm the worst person in the world. God makes everything A-Okay for me. I don't feel poor every time I look at my empty wallet, because surely, having a wallet is something already right? Now I would live my life to the present. Carpe diem is one of my favorite quotes, yet I don't do that. I live for the future. I do every homework, answer my exams, simply because I want to be able to provide for myself after I graduate for college.
Every quote on the poem struck me. But let me ponder more on this quote,
"To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves."I'm not a hypocrite when I say I forgive those who have wronged me. Because I do sincerely forgive those who have hurt me. But honestly, just like most of you people, I tend to assess the whole situation for a moment, let myself feel the pain, then when I'm ready, I forgive. And when I forgive, I TRY to forget how the person had hurt me. And when I couldn't, I remind myself that what that person did made me a better person. But I couldn't forgive myself when I do things to hurt others. I know I'm really hard on myself, but that's just how I am. I try to be perfect, but I can't. I try not to be mean to others, yet when i am mean to others, right after that I laugh, but deep inside, I think, "Oh no, what have I done?" You know what I mean? The guilt that I feel is just killing me. And that guilt stays with me for days. So I have to forgive myself also for doing such mean things.
To those people whom I have hurt one way or another, I'm sorry. Really sorry. I mean it from the bottom of my heart.Thanks nins for the link. I now feel so enlightened and so blessed. I feel so lucky to be alive.
Right after I visited the link above, I entered the site , and found another one, which is
Pathways to peace. This site has quotes from famous people and they are also touching.
On joy:
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice, for your soul is alive."- Eleonora DuseOn kindess:
"Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see."- Mark TwainOn faith:
"Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light."- Helen KellerOn courage:
"This is courage... to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends."- EuripedesOn hope:
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark."- George IlesOn love:
"I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love."- Mother TeresaOn patience:
"Never think that God's delays are God's denials. Hold on, Hold fast, Hold out. Patience is genius."- Comte Georges Louis Leclerc de BuffonOn determination:
"The great thing in this world is not so much where we are, but in what direction we are moving."- Oliver Wendell Holmesand the most striking quote of all..
On gratitude:
"A single grateful thought raised to heaven is the most perfect prayer."- Gotthold Ephraim LessingGod is everywhere. I sound like a disciple, but I guess I am one. So are you. :)
