All the love in the world

Right now, I feel so loved. :)

I woke up at 10.45 this morning, because I stayed up late last night, reviewing for Micropara Lab (which I finished last night) and for Micropara Lec (only 1 more chapter to go, thank God).. After watching Homeboy, forgive me for being so jologs, nagpapakatotoo lang. ;) I started reviewing Chapt 16 (MP Lec), then my Papa came in, asking if he could use the computer.
Then lunch with my family.
The topic on Chi's upcoming birthday party came up, and my mom asked who I'd be inviting, since I was the only one quiet in the table. Papa said right away,"Si Gino." I remained quiet, I hate being teased by my dad. I get scared kasi. Then Chi blurted out, "Di ah Pa! Break na sila ni Gino!" My dad was shocked and was in full-blast teasing mode. Then I was just quiet the whole time because I wasn't in the mood to eat, I kept thinking of what I would be doing next. In other words, I was too preoccupied with my thoughts to actually be minding their teasing. After lunch, while I was watching my sister sing, I hugged my Papa. He asked me if Gino and I are still together. I told him, "may aayaw ba saken?" Then he said seriously in these words:

"Kung ayaw na sayo ni Gino, o kahit sino pa, sabihin mo isauli ka saken."

I so wanted to cry. I never heard my Papa say those words to me ever. He's just the best. I love him. Haaay. Funny nga coz last night he saw me still studying at 12am (studying lang. not talking to gino), then he told me enough na daw, to sleep na coz I still have Monday and Tuesday to study. Hay..

Gino said I've been studying too much. I don't think so. I just really have to pull up my grades that's why I've been working so hard.

Right now, I feel so stupid. But that's silly, no one's stupid.

Misery loves company, but company does not reciprocate.

Especially this girl.

I thought that last week was the worst week of my college life. I was wrong. This week - WORST WEEK EVER. I am so hating myself right now. I'm quite optimistic when it comes to my life, but luck isn't on my side this time.

It's those days when you reflect on what's been happening in your life recently, and you just want to puke because the life you're living isn't the one you've always envisioned yourself in. Back in High School, when I think of what college would be like, I envision myself studying in THAT school, taking up an AB course, no relation to science whatsoever, having fun, being with my boyfriend, and more. What do I get? None of the above. I'm enjoying Nursing, but I can't seem to take the pressure. Maybe I'm like this because I don't get the grades I'm used to having. Back to mediocre grades. But I'm so over mediocrity. I admit, sometimes I'm content with average grades - only when I know I didn't study. Ugh. Everyone seems to be getting high grades, everyone except me. I'm so pissed with myself because though I exert too much effort studying, to the point of getting sick, nothing happens. I still get low grades. I know I could graduate with the grades I'm having, even pass the boards, but I feel bad because I wasn't able to be the best for my parents. That's the problem with me. I think of what I can do for others rather than think of what I can do for myself first, and for others next.

Stop being too sentimental, din. Life's beautiful. :)

Micro-Para is killing me right now. I still couldn't get over the quiz I took this morning in that subject. I was sort of confident that I could answer half of the questions confidently (forgive me for being so redundant. Nalusaw na utak ko). Wala akong masagot kanina. Sobrang tinititigan ko yung papel. Nasaan lahat ng inaral ko?! Nawala lahat. Grr!! Naaalala ko na naman! Move on, din..

I need all the help I could get to have decent grades in Ana-Physio, Funda, and CHN. My funda prof is so unfair. I got high grades in all of my quizzes last grading period, and yet I got a low average. Ugh. Di tama yun eh! I so wanna cuss right now, but I know it's not right. I'm trying to change. Enough of the cussing. I'm thinking of other words I could substitute with the bad words I often use. Think Din.

Prelims next week. I'm so gonna study for it. Have to have high grades.

I so miss High school. *sigh*

One thing to look forward to next week: no duty :)
another thing to look forward to: I'm gonna be driving to school everyday.. I know it's hassle, but what the heck?! At least I don't get impatient while waiting for the driver if I get out earlier than I'm supposed to.

sh*ttiest week ever

This has got to be the worst week I've had since school started. I've been under a lot of stress lately.

I'm now licensed to drive :) haha That's one of the FEW nice things that happened to me this week. Count your blessings diba?

Andy won against Juan Carlos Ferrero yesterday. Another thing to be happy about :) I hope he wins the US Open. . He hasn't won a grand slam in 2 years. As if naman diba, US Open pa lang nga napapanalunang grand slam ni Andy. But I believe in him. :)

I'm chatting with Tito Francis right now. Hay. I miss them..

PE later in the afternoon. Hope we win :)

pictures pictures!

pictures galore!


ate, chi, and I while watching the ADMU-NU game last July 24th


oana and dindin @ taco bell


me and krizka @ grilla


Oana and Jr @ my place - Papa's birthday party



me and oana

Family pictures




me and ate mae yesterday

I have uploaded pics on my multiply.
Wala lang :)

DEPRESSED

I am depressed. Because of school. I'm in this phase wherein I don't think I can go on anymore. I feel as though I'm hanging by a thread and in any moment, I can fall. And fall hard. I have to fight, I know. I hope I make it.

Trisha, don't know how, but Margaux knows you (from our pictures). She saw a picture of us a while ago (wallpaper ng phone ko - sweet noh?) then she said, "didin! tish!" She called you Tish. :)

My back hurts. Because of stress. I am so stressed with everything. 2 more months til Sembreak. I am so looking forward to sembreak. I NEED A BREAK. I'm like a freshman in college, I can't quite adapt to my classes. It's already the 2nd grading period, and I still feel harassed by all the subjects. Then my parents are nagging me about getting my license so I can drive myself to school. They want me to have a license by next week. I'm not looking forward to driving to school because once that happens, I have to leave the house at 5am every single morning - for the parking. Grabe. I don't wanna think about it.

I still love my life though.

Watched If only with Chi and Ate Mae this afternoon as I didn't have PE this afternoon. It was so nice. *sigh* I cried the whole time.. Crybaby, I know.

Gusto ko na bumalik sa High School. Haaay.. Buhay nga talaga.

missing trisha

I love sleeping when it's raining. Exactly the kind of weather we're experiencing today. Thank God we didn't have classes in the morning.

I woke up at around 10am, took a bath, watched Something's gotta give, had lunch, then at 12.30 left the house for UST. I don't really leave the house 30 mins before my class starts, it's just that I figured that since it's noon,there won't be any traffic. Right? Wrong. It was so traffic. I had a flat tire. And I was so late for my PE class.I know it's just PE, but I like my PE class. It's the only part of the week when I get to really exercise my bodyand really run and do athletic stuff. When I was like 10 minutes from school (and 30mins late), Abbie textedme and told me to go back home, because they were dismissed na. So aside from being marked ABSENT, andnot being able to exercise, I was so pissed. Really pissed. Hay. That's life.

I had my return demo for the Intradermal Injection yesterday and I survived! The only thing that's kindof keeping me sad is the part where I have to have make-up duty because I had long nails DAW - may puti lang nails ko LONG na siya?! Badtrip coz last Wed night, I was contemplating on whether I would cut my nails or not,then I decided against it, coz my nails weren't long naman. Ugh. For the first time in my college life, I didn't become segurista and it backfired. I wanted to get mad at myself, but then I said, it's gonna make me a better person. I'm trying to erase the fact that next saturday morning won't be a fun morning because I have to wake up at 6am for my duty. I have to. :)

My parents are finally coming home on Sunday and I so can't wait! I'm not looking forward to pasalubongs, because I didn't ask for anything except and iPod. I just miss them. Plus, my most awaited Andy Roddick wristbands. :) I asked my uncle to buy 1 for me, and he bought 5 :) haha can you imagine me wearing a baller id? Neither can I. But it's something that links me to Andy. So, I like it. :) He has one. I have one. It's all good. :)

harrassed

I feel so harrassed and so stressed.

My parents are finally coming home on Sunday. Goody! I miss them so much.. :(

So many things to do, so little time. That's been my favorite line since school started. Prolly because that's how things are for me right now. Ugh.

Can you imagine me playing basketball? Aba, starting 5 ata ito noh. Haha no joke :) Our prof wanted 3 girls and 2 boys in the starting 5. There are only 4 girls in my team, 1 is absent. So Abbie, Ruffa Mae and I had to play. For 3 consecutive quarters. Minus the time-outs and the halftime. I kept yelling, "SUB!!" coz I couldn't breathe and move properly anymore. Our prof didn't want the boys to play yet, coz the team we were playing only had 4 boys. Ugh, badtrip noh? Anyway, naawa din naman ung propesor namin nung matapos ang 3rd quarter. Duh. Sugurin kaya nila ko sa Health Service noh. Kung di ako tumigil maglaro malamang asa stretcher na ko nung gitna ng 4th quarter. May puso din pala prof namin. I had tachycardia. 115+ ppm. Hala na. :)

I still have to finish my NCPs. Ugh. Our CHN prof taught us to administer intradermal and intramuscular medications this afternoon. Thank God I didn't faint. I almost did. I don't think I could do it. I'm still not yet sure if the Return Demo for the ID will be on Thursday or next week. Hopefully next week, so I have more time to prepare (AND PRAY) haha

I just read Trisha's email for me. I'm so glad she's doing okay there. I really really miss her. I'll reply to your email soon trisha.. On Thursday, PROMISE.. I have so many kwentos to tell you so expect my email to be a really looooooooong one.. It's Papa's birthday on Friday, the party's on Sunday. I was about to text you ba naman this morning, inviting you to the party. Then I remember.. Trisha's in Canada na pala. Same thing happened to me last Sunday, when Abbie and I watched the UST-NU game. Abbie told me to text all my friends to watch the game, baka daw makita kami sa TV. I almost sent a message to Trish. hay. Miss you Sweetie.. LOVE YOU!