I super duper love my family!!

We went to Daddy Toto's wake last night. His unico hijo (Tito Gary) was there, with his wife Tita Aimee and their cute, adorable little girl, Caitlin - which happens to be my favorite name (for a girl, and I swear I'm gonna name my first baby girl Caitlin). It was the last day as Daddy Toto's body was cremated this morning. I was the official babysitter last night. I wasn't the oldest grandchild there, but then the oldest ones were hanging out with our parents - as they're kinda adults themselves. I took care of, take note, 8 kids. 6 girls and 2 super kulit boys. I was never that close to my second cousins before, and for the first time in my life, I appreciated their presence. And I loved it. I love them. Although they are all super kulit, they make me feel young. Because I am young. Another thing that made me extremely happy last night was Caitlin. She is so adorable. Super cute, and always smiling. She lives in Texas, though, with her parents. It's the first time I've seen her and probably the last (until like 5 years from now?) as they're leaving for Texas on Sunday. I so love my family.

I went to my derma this afternoon, and you'll never guess who was there, consulting my derma... Mariel from Extra Challenge! She's super pretty, but super loud as well. I don't know what she had done, but she kept shouting and reading out loud her text messages, and talking and talking. Not that it made me mad, it made me smile, actually. She's really pretty. But I saw her looking at the mirror a lot. And I mean a lot. Hahaha. Like I said, I went nga to the derma this afternoon, and my face hurts a lot! 4 or 5 of my pimples were injected, but that's okay. Like what my derma said, the motto of every vain woman: No pain, no gain.

I love life! Even if bad things happen to us, there's always something good - something better actually, that's coming our way. And I believe that. I am a believer. *sigh*

right now, i am so not thinking of NURSING or of UST. please, pray for me....

PICTURES

this is my cute cousin, Caitlin :) isn't she adorable?


me with Caitlin

a very holy week

I just got home from church. My mom, chi, ate mae, cousin liaa, and I attended the Easter Vigil that lasted for 2 and a half hours. It was all worth it. I feel more fulfilled, although I don't know why. I want to write about so many things since last Thursday, but I couldn't, since I felt that if I did do that, my mom would barge into the room and once again lecture me about Jesus' suffering and stuff like that. I was so happy that Studio 23 silently answered my prayers by the 11-episode marathon of Gilmore Girls last Maundy Thursday. I was more than happy to watch - I so love the Gilmore Girls. They're the reason why I don’t like to go out on Saturday nights. Babaw I know, but I just love watching them. The bond that Rory and Lorelai have is just something I'm so jealous of. As much as I love having a big and complete family, I envy the bond that Rory and Lorelai have. They are the best of friends, yet they're mother-daughter. How I wish I could talk to my mom about anything and everything - such as boys and stuff. I get to tell her everything naman - like what happens to me in school, the people I encounter, how I feel, and more, but somehow, she’s not exactly 100% supportive of the things I want. but I love her, I really do =) On that same day- Thursday - instead of having our annual Visita Iglesia on Maundy Thursday, we attended the service at the Methodist Church. The Pastor chose Papa to be one of the disciples. Yeah, the pastor washed Papa's feet. And for the first time in my life, I also saw women acting like disciples. That's one of the things I like about the Methodist Church, they're not chauvinists. Anyway, I was extremely proud of my Papa because he helped this really old lady, who had a difficulty walking, walk up the stairs to the altar. My great-uncle, Tito Juanito (Tayag) who we fondly call Daddy Toto, as he was the one who was responsible for my Mama and my aunt's grade school and High school education, passed away last Thursday at 9am. It was really sad. Ate Mae, Chi, Liaa and Cara (my cousins), and I went to his wake last night at Loyola. We all cried when we got there coz the people from his parish were there, leading the rosary and singing Church songs. By the end of the night, I wondered whether I was in a party or in a wake. My uncles entertained all of us (Tayag family) by telling us stories of their schooling experience. It was hilarious. I remembered my great-grandma's wake, it was also like that. It's always like that, whenever my family gets together. And because of this, I have to say that I am proud to be a Tayag. They're all proud of it. My great-grandpa was one of the first medicine graduates at the UST Med School, and yet, his kids weren't at all that bright. Only 3 of his 7 students were the ones who were really smart. They used to be really rich. But my great grandparents died at such an early age. Ironically, the not-so-rich kids my great-grandpa had as scholars (i.e. his nieces and nephews) were the ones who are now really rich and really successful. But despite my family's background, we are all happy. Really happy. It's Holy Week, right? Which made me miss my Paopao and my uncle and aunt more. I so miss them. They're in Baltimore, lonely and all. We're all supposed to be visiting them this year, but because of the things that happened in January, we couldn't go. And I'm not bitter that we wouldn't be able to go there. I'm content with what I have. And I have my family. Couldn't be happier. =) after all, I'd be living in the States right after I pass the boards. About 3 years from now. Sad... I so miss everyone. Missin school (can't believe I'm saying this!!!). I only miss school because I miss my friends. Ahahahaha. We're going out this coming Wednesday naman eh, to watch Ms. Congeniality 2... I might watch MYMP on Wed night too.. and I have to go to Chi's grad party - her class would be having this party and chi asked gino if he could play for them. He's so in demand tlaga. =) I miss him. I miss his voice. I haven't talked to him for 3 days na. He's in Bicol right now eh, but he'd be going home tomorrow. I so can't wait. Mahina signal in Bicol kasi eh, he couldn't call or text me. Pahirapan magtext grabe!! I just love him so much. Because of the man that he is and is trying to be. *haaay*

PICTURES:

me and inna - 1st sem @ a uaap game

me and abbie - after enrollment (last sem)

me and oana

inna, me and abbie

abbie, me, inna and oana

oana, me, abbie, and inna with kenken

FAMILY PICTURES

nanay, me, ate mae, chi, and mama - chi's grad

me, papa, chi, and mama

me and the graduate

summer days!

yeah. summer's definitely here..it's so freakin' hot! taking a bath twice isn't enough for the heat you know.

i went out last friday with inna, abbie, owel, tiff, erika, and a lot more of abbie's friends from tarlac.. oana followed us (she looked pretty with her cute gown ah). we went to greenbelt and watched hitch, which i totally recommend everyone to watch. it's so funny. i like it :-)

my ma, ate, chi and i watched the pacifier 2 nights ago at eastwood.. ahhh... i loved the movie! vin diesel was sooo hot! hahaha watch it you guys.

16 days of waiting for judgment day..


I AM SUCH A BOOKWORM.
last friday, i started reading Nicholas Sparks' The Wedding and finished it at Saturday afternnoon. i fell in love with it. read it.
i started reading Judith McNaught's Something Wonderful yesterday at 1pm and finished it today at 3.30pm. couldn't keep my hands off the book. i still have another Judith McNaught novel to read and another Jude Deveraux. haha, i don't have money because of these books. the next time i buy a book i'm gonna charge it to my credit card. hahaha
i am so in love with judith mcnaught's books. she is such an angel. i've read 3 and i don't mind reading all of her books :)


6 days of summer and i think i gained about 5 lbs already. haha

barx? alis naman tayo o.
abbie inna oana? hello? i'm still alive. haha let's go out
friends? give me a ring

freedom! almost.....

yey! i can't really say yet, but somehow, i want to say that i survived (ooh i hope!!) my first year in college.. i carry with me bittersweet memories.. yeah..

1st sem was definitely more fun than 2nd sem.. first, because subjects were much simpler (but chem, i tell you, was already hell!), didn't have a grueling sched, UAAP basketball games (hahaha, ugh, the bonding moments with abbie, inna and trish - priceless!), and i can say that i made a lot of new friends.. that sad to say, i wasn't able to keep until 2nd sem.. i am still hoping for a reconciliation, but all of us are too proud to approach each other. it was a very little thing made big by some people. there's no more time for blaming each other. it's over. we might never see each other again - not because we'd be kicked out, but because i think the class will be split into two.. uh, as of now, i'm hoping and praying that i make the cut..

know what, the conflict in class? it's nothing to me anymore.. if they talk to me about it, i'd talk to them. but let me reiterate, no one's making any move for things to be okay between all of us. and well, that's fine by me. i don't like bad memories, so i'd like to remember the good ones nalng. Din, stop thinking about it na!!

I'M FREEEEEE!! no more sleeping for 5 hours a night.. no more waking up at 5 in the morning and sleeping in the van until i get to UST.. no more sleeping again in the van before i even get to Quezon Ave! No more waking up at 5 on wednesdays without shampooing! and best of all,,, NO MORE CHEMISTRY!! 2 semesters of chemistry just made my first year in college a REAL CHALLENGE. and i'm SO NOT SARCASTIC. for all incoming freshmen nursing students at UST, if you LOVED chemistry in high school, you're so gonna hate it this time! Now i can proudly say that i have been through general, inorganic, organic and biochemistry!! now beat that! hahahahaha!

today was my last day as a frosh.. and hopefully, i make it to second year.. indeed a lot of memories that i will keep until my last breath - uh, i do have a flair for the dramatic.

april 8th - Judgment day for frosh nursing students in UST.. the college'll be posting the qualified students for 2nd year.. Oh Lord i hope i make it... man! 2 weeks of worrying!!!!!!! deja vu! *flashback* december 2003 until january 10th 2004 - waiting for the results of the ACET. i was a nervous wreck because of that.. but i'm happy with the result :) i hope i'm happy with the result this time too.... i don't have any grade below 80... yet i'm so nervous.. HELLO??? THE CUT-OFF!!!! ayoko na. I'm bad in chem kasi eh.. makes me nervous kasi i know that my grade in chem would probably be 2.75! and that's 5 units! zoo pa! 5 units! 10 units of science. pero that's okay.. :) it's over. and i did my sorta best naman in the finals. had to make major bawi! and i made bawi :)

they say that if you don't get nervous anymore, you should get nervous.. is that a good sign?

well..

jaye texted me last night.. well, to tell the story in a brief way, we're okay na - i hope. just had this misunderstanding. wouldn't go much into the details, it might get big again.

changed my layout... for the nth time.. hahaha nice namn diba?

gino had lunch here, coz i don't have classes until tomorrow.. we studied together, while taking care of margaux.. she's just so adorable.. then he left na for school, coz he's having his nat sci finals today.. i hope he does good.. he hasn't been sleeping well, coz of the countless requirements for school. i, on the other hand, have been that way for 2 semesters already. i'm so used to it.

i really have to study for zoo and chem.. and finish my english paper. why am i online?? stress-reliever i guess.

every time i think of zoo and chem, i blame myself for being in UST. i'm supposed to be studying in ateneo. i know it's much harder there, but hello? at least i'm taking up a course i really want. diba? enough of that. enjoy nalng what's left of my freshman year at UST. can't believe the school year's about to end na. i hope i make it to second year. *prays hard*

pray for me guys!!